Word of the Day Challenge #84-Untitled Poem

I sit
tears falling
blurred vision
all I can think of
is how I hurt you
how much I miss you
this throbbing ache
peering
blinded eyes
never again
together
held by you
chase the nightmares away
you became deeply entrenched
with blooded memories of my past
tangled webs
I cannot unwind
curled inward
grasping knees
piercing screams
wave after wave
venomous evil
washes over me
yawning
black pit
sucking me in
screaming
even as you held me
promising safety
protection
I know…..
I know you wished me no harm
I know you held me with love
I know…..
all you ever wanted
was to protect me true
eventually though
no one
but me
could protect me
with promise of haven
able was I
trust
held me close
chase the demons
spear them
protection
I found in your arms
only to realize
a part of the horror
the wicked dreams
forever entangled
in your love
wistful thinking
I’d be able to separate
horror from peace
in the end
I had to say good bye.
©Jan. 26/20
Picture is my own

Author: Jay-lyn Doerksen

I am a single hard working mom in her 40's. I have always written poetry and I love words. I live with depression and its ups downs. This is a space where I can create and write all that I need to.

48 thoughts on “Word of the Day Challenge #84-Untitled Poem”

      1. I don’t think they can. I have yet to see proof of relationships lasting forever. Not something I have had in my life. Relationships are transition points…..I am the point and I am the transition for so many…..

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      2. And you are a bit scared of love and hide behind your darkness because love can make you take your defenses down and you’ve been hurt too many times.

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      3. I have heard about the guys that have hurt you. And then I hear about you and your insecurities that have pushed guys away.

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      4. So… you can’t say you couldn’t have love. You just get anxiety when it gets serious.

        And please don’t think I’m judging you or think different about you. And don’t think I’m being a 💩-head.

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      5. Well ma’am. I hope you meet him! And I hope he takes every bit of you that you throw at him! Because you deserve it!

        I’m not trying to be personal im just learning about this woman who calls me her adopted brother. 🙂

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