***I realize that this is very dark and disturbing. The emotions that I have drawn upon are not what I am feeling today. These are the echoes I can recall and express from the dark days of late 2017 and early 2018.*****
Blank sighted
mind aswirl
twisting
reaching out
reaching in
nightmare visions
stop…..
please…..
stop them.
Pain
day after day
night after night
cripples my heart
cripples my body
cripples my mind
unable to move
tears fall
unchecked
river flowing free
curled inward
falling
vile cesspooled pit.
Mouth open
silent screams
reverberate
penetrating to soul
rending
devoured
black ghouls
fattened upon gristled drips
sliver thin
sliced
keen blade
mind in torment.
Understand…..
This is not a cell.
This is not a jail
that I have created
for I want attention
for I need adulation
for I need care…..
it is my mind
caging me
castigating me
slowly killing me.
Unseen death
walking waking nightmare
upon this path
only I can go…..
light recedes
black encroaches
times I believe
death
would be better than this…..
©April 27/20
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Have been in a very similar place, too. You capture and express it so well. I’m so pleased that you are in a better place now 🌹
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so glad you are no longer in this dark place.
black ghouls
fattened upon gristled drips
Lady I love the darkness that these two lines evoke! Your strength of character shines through in your ability to write about the darkness you lived with and climbed out of to become who you are today. I salute you. I love you too, but that goes without saying… 😛 xx
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Miss Gemma!!!!!!😍😍😍
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It is dark, but I admire your courage to share these dark thoughts so beautifully and poetically!!
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Thank you. Two years have passed and though I can still recall emotions and feelings I am in the best space ever. 🤓💜
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That makes me SO happy!! 💜💜💜 I think it’s important that we allow ourselves the time to feel, and remember those feelings. We can use them a lesson tools.
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I completely agree. 🤓💜
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Yikes, that is pretty dark, glad you are in a better place now!
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Thank you. Two years since that happened and am in such an amazing space. 🤓💜
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