Death’s Mastery

***I realize that this is very dark and disturbing. The emotions that I have drawn upon are not what I am feeling today. These are the echoes I can recall and express from the dark days of late 2017 and early 2018.*****

Blank sighted

mind aswirl

twisting

reaching out

reaching in

nightmare visions

stop…..

please…..

stop them.

Pain

day after day

night after night

cripples my heart

cripples my body

cripples my mind

unable to move

tears fall

unchecked

river flowing free

curled inward

falling

vile cesspooled pit.

Mouth open

silent screams

reverberate

penetrating to soul

rending

devoured

black ghouls

fattened upon gristled drips

sliver thin

sliced

keen blade

mind in torment.

Understand…..

This is not a cell.

This is not a jail

that I have created

for I want attention

for I need adulation

for I need care…..

it is my mind

caging me

castigating me

slowly killing me.

Unseen death

walking waking nightmare

upon this path

only I can go…..

light recedes

black encroaches

times I believe

death

would be better than this…..

©April 27/20

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