Following My Path

I scritch
I scratch
forever do I feel
I am at the bottom of an abyss
looking up
not able to climb
no matter how hard I try.
Do you see me?
Do you see beyond the outside of me?
Or is all you see……a woman?
I carry a burden.
Not a burden
for children
the caring of
the caring for
not a chore
love
days are that I want to drop the load
feel as though I am invisible
can you not see me?
My fears
rally
confronted
peering over the ledge
waiting
responsibility weighs heavily
knowing I have to raise
to teach
fearing that I will not.
I do not want
nor do I need
your pity
your sneer
I know what I have
strengths abound
I can teach
I can raise
beautiful women.
Every so often though
I am weak
I struggle
I feel the weight upon my shoulders
when I do
when I drop the ball
stare not
glare not
reach out
despite my resistance
I need you
I need your help
I need you to hold my hand.
Like thorns on a rose
prick my skin
without them
without sharp sting
I would be lost
for truth is
best part of me
still to lead.
©June 26/20
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Author: Jay-lyn Doerksen

I am a single hard working mom in her 40's. I have always written poetry and I love words. I live with depression and its ups downs. This is a space where I can create and write all that I need to.

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