***This poem portrays a very bleak vision of myself. While I do have a constant mental health checklist I am going over every so often I wonder if I am fooling myself. I am not anywhere near the darkness portrayed in this poem.***
Peering
nose pressed to mirror
eyes darting
checking
evaluating.
Lackluster smile
tired from being on
day in
day out
cheerleader for all
no one to cheer me.
Lines etched
creased
no longer smile
frown
pursed lips
unhappy
pressing closer
looking for
trying to find
the girl
the one I was before.
Listening
intently
is that a whisper
chirp of bitter voice
striving to return
tears seep
am I going insane?
am I already there?
Check list
one…..
two…..
three…..
seem to pass
yet it is there
niggling worry
depression riding blackened cloud
ready to attach itself
bleed my beating heart
returning me to desolation
to despair…..
do you hear it too?
©July 7/20
Picture is my own
I’ll always cheer you on no matter what 🙂
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Thank you lil sis……..:)
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Anytime, sis 🙂
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Mwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh 🙂
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Huh? Was that meant to be a kiss or something?
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Kiss
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Ah, right. Sorry, lol!
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Beautiful! Thank you for your words. Can’t wait to read more ❤️
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Thank you so very much. I hope you enjoy the poetry I have written and will enjoy the poems and posts to come. 🙂
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Very beautiful ❤
We all think that we’re the only one but trust me we’re not alone in this.
A bit of sunshine and a bit of rain
It’s a part of every ones life
Keep writing✍️
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Thank you. The emotions expressed are ones I felt in the midst of my depression two years ago. I am in such a healthier and happier place now. I am able to recall how I feel and use those to create these dark poems. I appreciate your reading and commenting.
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I’m glad to hear that..
Wish u Lights n love ur way Jay-lyn 💖
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Thank you very much. 🤓💜
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