Dowry of Pain

Headlines
braying
‘Socialite murdered!’
‘Husband Charged!’
‘Who will take the children now?’
One lone tear
gathers
trembles on lash
spills
only sign of grief
wondering 
whatever happened to that boy
the one I loved
all those years ago?
Love 
deep
true
together forever
we promised
laying in the back of your truck
night sky
alit with burning stars.
Holding hands
your thumb tracing palm
frissons of desire licking at my soul
dreams
where we would go
what we would do
all that we could be.
All that we would be.
Crept up slowly
fingers digging in
leaving prints
seem to excite you
pain 
whimpers 
begging 
promising anything
to be left alone.
It ended 
suddenly
with not a bang
with a slap
rocking my head
world suddenly moving
ringing
doing nothing 
waiting
smiled at a friend.
Snarling rage.
You may have killed me
No denying
you wanted to.
Screaming
puce face
spittle flying
I cowered before you
knowing one last blow
would be the end .
Your body 
hitting ground hard
timely intervention
guardian angel at hand.
There is no charging 
white rich boy.
I ran.
Coward that I was.
For that 
another innocent
no
three innocents
paid my bride price. 
 
©Sept. 22/20
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Author: Jay-lyn Doerksen

A single hard working mom of a soon to be teenage son. A poet and story teller I have wanted to write since I was a child. This space is where I share stories about myself and my life and the creative poetry that stirs my soul. My hope is you will pull up a chair and a cup of coffee delving into the world that I offer and you find simple enjoyment for a few moments. Welcome to The Wonderful & Wacky World of One Single Mom

12 thoughts on “Dowry of Pain”

  1. I was okay and okay and okay and then triggered. I felt every word, thought, deed after that one word. I loved this, it climbed inside my head and opened lids of boxes long since sealed, but I don’t care because I controlled the outcome and made it to the end in rush of emotion.
    Got no other way to describe the effects of this one. xxx ♥ xxx

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      1. Noooo! Don’t you dare! I loved this poem, it reached deep and caused me to feel something I rarely feel. Usually I get through most days in a numb haze. Hardly anything ever penetrated the steel trap, and then I met you and bang, just like that I am experiencing emotions again through your poetry! Don’t ever apologise for that! Love you lil Sis xxx

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      2. Yeah, you and one other are the only two ever to get behind it! Don’t worry, pay back is coming big time in a few weeks, maybe a month. Depends how long it takes me to get through this portion of my diaries. You have been warned lol xxx

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