Breath Baby

Eyes wide
fear induced
strapped to chair
seeing heart beat
scent of terror 
mimosa urine sweat betrayal rage impotence 
strength 
no place here
my fortress
now you will pay.
Really not that sweet 
not any more
you saw to that.
Ten lashes.
One for each year.
Delivered.
Cat o’nine
damage flesh
shriek
music
tempo changes
crescendo 
nine…..
ten.
Breath Baby.
Just Breath.
Sucked me in.
Nerdy I was.
Stay at home.
Wine and books.
Then You.
Stallion 
royal sleek
many a preening princess
walked right passed
eyes upon the prize
flattery
how fucking stupid was I?
Baseball Bat.
Will do for me
in place of fists.
Each pain
each thud
each grunt
every wave of pain
I shall return
tenfold you bloody bastard.
All I was 
laughed at
bought
sins were mine
paid for
near death 
rage 
quivering mess was I.
Standard apocryphal
none believed
none who knew me
idiot men
such as you
wanted it to be true
watch out wives
they are coming for you. 
Drip.
Drip.
Drip. 
Drip.
Mask of blood
feral grin
I will watch you darlin’ 
let you bleed
until you are blue 
then resurrect 
time and again
until my desire for revenge 
sated
eliminated.
Breath Baby.
Just Breath.
 
©Sept. 28/20
Picture via PInterest