Autumn’s Tears

Always wrong

tears

slow seep

caress

salted lips

fear

pain

wishes

all out in front

no lies

no mistruths

everything is as I want it

everything is as I see it

everything is a lonely space

for while I reach

you pull away

leaving me searching for more.

What happened to happy ever afters?

Why am I so scarred

men would rather run

then see the nightmare sitting 

waiting 

with bated breath

for me to stumble

for me to fall

for like a lover

it will catch me

cradle me

while destroying me.

No longer willing to try.

No longer willing to not be a choice.

No longer willing…..

to accept less then

to being second place 

to being only useful when you want me.

There is more

a light

failed to be seen

your loss

not mine

so sorry

hope that graveyard of dreams

of broken wants

of destroyed needs

fill your nights

in ways 

I seem unable to.

Tip my hat.

Time to go.

So sorry.

So hard.

Bye bye.

I can no longer wait to be yours.

 

©Oct. 8/20

Picture is my own