Addicted Voice

I originally wrote this poem in 2019. Long before I quit drinking.

Can you hear?
That voice
subtle
mere hiss in your ear
whisper
on the edge of awareness
cooing
‘come to me baby
come to my heart
I have you little girl
will never ever 
let you fall.‘
Sensations 
overriding thoughts
hold me close
addiction
steady chant
ease the ache
ease the pain
take as much as you can.
My blood is sluggish
my thoughts impaired
heart races 
triple time
so sure 
that I am dead.
Stutter
stall a beat
breath catches in my throat
shall I die
shall I cry
who will understand?
That sensation
muffled cotton
wrapped
oh my god
I am so content.
This is what it does
drug
alcohol
beast that calms the urge
wrap me in velvet
take me from here.
Eyes flutter shut
carried away
clouds
white innocence
finally
pain is no more.
©Dec. 30/19
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Author: Jay-lyn Doerksen

A single hard working mom of a soon to be teenage son. A poet and story teller I have wanted to write since I was a child. This space is where I share stories about myself and my life and the creative poetry that stirs my soul. My hope is you will pull up a chair and a cup of coffee delving into the world that I offer and you find simple enjoyment for a few moments. Welcome to The Wonderful & Wacky World of One Single Mom

7 thoughts on “Addicted Voice”

    1. Thank you so much. Quitting was a long process for me but eventually I did so. But addiction is not just alcohol or drugs and I wanted to portray the feelings of uselessness the fight and inevitable taking up of the addiction again. How the voice is so seductive in your ear teasing your with just one is okay you can handle it. That voice is the destruct button and needs to be eradicated. It is not easy at all for the majority of people it is a constant struggle to remain ahead of that voice.

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