All Functions Normal

When I went to see my doctor in February we talked about my liver.

And decided that we would do a liver function test but I wanted to wait until it had been a full year of not drinking before I went.

I guess for me that was the magic number.

I wanted one full year of my liver living clean.

I have been incredibly worried and scared.

I had from mid-July onward and finally I broke down on Monday and went in at 7:30 a.m.

I had a doctor call that afternoon and I mentioned that I had only just gone in for the test.

It is not just the alcohol that my liver has had to contend with.

I began taking pills in 1999.

Summer of.

And while the addiction to T1’s grew over time and I would stop taking them for a period only to start again.

That was a lot of acetaminophen over a long long time period.

Add in the alcohol too and well…..

I never heard back from the doctor Monday so I was going with the old adage no news is good news.

Yesterday morning I was sitting here messaging with M and my phone pinged off that I had a new text message at the same time that my notification also went off for my email.

Now generally the only other times it does this is when I have dental appointments scheduled/doctor appointments or my hydro bill shows up.

I flicked open my messages and my heart stalled 😱😱😱😱:

You have received a new message from……

Use your one time code to log in.

I clicked on the link.

I entered in my one time code.

I entered in my birthday.

I hesitated before I hit send because my natural instinct was to bury my head in the sand.

I did not want to know.

I was sure that it had to be bad news.

Why else would I have received a text?

When I opened up the message the first words I saw were Good News!

Followed by your liver functions are all normal.

I burst into tears. 😭😭😭😭

Like ugly sobbing and I called M.

Who was soaking in the tub and snarled at me demanding to know why I was calling to disturb her zen bath time.🛀🛀🛁

I am bawling my eyes out barely able to talk which then leads to slight panic on M’s end.

Finally I was able to stutter out it was a good cry and told her why.

Read her my numbers.

She promised to check them out at work last night but she had a busy crazy night so I will let it slide for now. 😂😂😂😂

I called mom too and scared her.

Even as I sit here writing this I have tears rolling down my cheeks.

All the big ones have been checked off the list.

Brain.

Kidneys.

Liver.

Internal female stuff.

I have a year’s reprieve before I get to smoosh my boobs and get a finger up the…..

©Sept. 1/21

Picture is my own