More Growth Required

I learned something about myself today. I still have a ton of work to do on myself.

When I get frustrated, I have the worst habit of not saying anything and being really short with the person. My tone becomes whiplashish. I hate that I do this and realize that I really have to learn to be better.

I need to remember to take a deep breath. When I am frustrated.

I need to remember that I do not need to engage with everyone who says something stupid to me. Those who like to tell me that we can reprogram our self checkouts so that it does not ask how many bags you used when you put in that you were using your own bags. I said it has to do with the scale and asking for the bags is part of the payment. She did not like that answer and I think she may have gone and said something. I know who she is lol and I remember stuff like that. But I did not need to engage with her.

I need to remember that I have got to rein in my expectations. I have a bad habit of expecting everyone else to act the same way that I do. And everyone is different. People do not think like I do and I am aware of this.

I have this bizarre mixture of thoughts going through my head. I am not even really sure what they are about.

I realized today that I have a lot of growth left. I have a lot of things to learn and I look forward to doing so. It is uncomfortable to recognize this lack within me.

I am going to leave it here because I am ramblin. Tired. Hungry.

Sept. 29/22

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