He stood over the abyss, toes curled against rock
the thirst, the hunger
the anger, the hatred
eating at his soul.
Within his mind bruised the words
of mobs chasing
who thought they were better
who thought they should know.
On his knees he crawled through filth and muck
weeping tears that none could see.
A sneer twists his lips,
wicked words that punish those
who thought they knew best
who thought they knew more.
A false thought of flight
as he jumps forth to the air
waiting for the rescue
he was certain was near.
Bitter tears and twisted smiles
ashes within my mouth
hidden daggers sheathed in my soul
tangled words you should not have spoken.
Cruel lies whispered with disdain
chains that wrapped and held
close me in this nightmarish hell
and abandon me with nary a farewell.
I will rise from the flames you consigned me to
better and stronger than before
and when I do you need to be aware
and search the shadows for the animal
you did create.
You Swore! You Promised!
Spittle covers my dejected face
as I fall to my knees.
Tattered rags and dirt covered feet
attest to how far I have come.
I watch the disdain play a game
trying to hide and yet failing.
I watch those of your court pity me
but there is nothing I can do.
You swore that you would protect me!
You promised that you would love me!
And yet here I am, abased on the floor.
I hear the clack of heels as you walk away,
I hear the murmur of voices in my head,
in a flash with a blade of steel
I have ended your life.
I trusted you at a time when all deferred
holding your hand in a time of terror
as you did loudly proclaim
your sincere innocence.
I followed your lead, pushed them all away
locking myself away in the dark
Your words were like whips stinging
your lips stroked with velvet steel
your caresses desirous to me.
I lost myself within your reason
I lost myself within your greed
I lost myself within your desire
for it was how I had to pay.
I lay upon the grassy knoll
staring at the sky above
creating sandcastles and dreams
from the clouds floating by.
Near my head
a silent vibrating phone
that I chose to ignore.
The pain I feel
the scorching of my soul
no words that you have spoken
will heal this scar.
Tears course down silvered cheeks
tiny lips quivering with fear
when above me it forms.
My Castle in the Sky.
My home away from here.
My Castle in the Sky.
Remember me with kindness.
lost in the memories of before
I dream of folly.
I knew it was not true
but I want to believe in those promises.
I wanted to believe that the hope you gave me
I wanted to believe in the mirage I held
sandcastles built in the sky
balanced on the clouds of my dreams.
Tears I have wept, tears I have cried
dejected with the loss of your heat.
lost in all those memories of before
and knowing it never meant a thing to you at all.
On the morrow when my heart is breaking
when the tears are filling mine eyes
I will seek for thee
I will watch with wonder as once more
our love does grow so wild
I will watch with agony as we come undone
bitter in such defeat.
Once upon a time came to us
once upon a time we failed
Once upon a time winter’s snow did creep
and the blackness enthralled.