Emmie/Emmellia Untitled Poem #12

Death comes
slow
creeping close
black bleeds
red
through time
voices call
screaming
searing
pushing
get away
shrieks
bound wrists
blades removed
time taken
hurt self
why
all the same
questions
again
again
again
go away
never hear
never listen
left to bleed…..
leave me
heed me
desolate
languish
grey soulled
fuck you
make it all better
promised lies
like all the others
get away
abandon me…..
huddled
pain
gasped fear
only one
leaving
turn
too late
shade gone
reverberating howl
beating flesh
plunge needle in
finally…..
let her rest.
©Jan. 31/21
Artwork is my own
1st time I have attempted work to accompany my poetry

Emmie/Emmellia Untitled Poem #11

He groomed me.
He molded me.
He sold me.
Why do you continue to ask
over and over
same questions
different ways
same answers
every time
right down
to the infliction.
Why do you need to torment 
what I would rather forget?
Hidden deep
stirring depths
dragon raised
protected
nurtured
dark hatred
tips of fingers to tips of toes
starved silhouette
pirouettes
silent
through shadows
drives
rapid memories
into mind
turning perversion
mind frothing insanity
boiling
inside out
blood flowing
standing
watch
life
ebbing away.
You think
you feel
I should care more
feel more?
Your society believes 
no matter provocation
I should bow
I should be thankful
survived?
Have you stood
grown men
staring
pre-pubescent
budding nipples
do not sit
judgement
unless you too
have seen
have done 
the things forced upon me.
Defiance found
stand tall
protect at all cost
little girl
found
behind scarred door
locked with chains
keeping
at best
worst of the monsters
out.
©January 26/21
Picture is my own