Emmie/Emmellia Untitled Poem #12

Death comes

slow

creeping close

black bleeds

red

through time

voices call

screaming

searing

pushing

get away

shrieks

bound wrists

blades removed

time taken

hurt self

why

all the same

questions

again

again

again

go away

never hear

never listen

left to bleed…..

leave me

heed me

desolate

languish

grey soulled

fuck you

make it all better

promised lies

like all the others

get away

abandon me…..

huddled

pain

gasped fear

only one

leaving

turn

too late

shade gone

reverberating howl

beating flesh

plunge needle in

finally…..

let her rest.

©Jan. 31/21

Artwork is my own

1st time I have attempted work to accompany my poetry

Emmie/Emmellia Untitled Poem #11

He groomed me.

He molded me.

He sold me.

Why do you continue to ask

over and over

same questions

different ways

same answers

every time

right down

to the infliction.

Why do you need to torment 

what I would rather forget?

Hidden deep

stirring depths

dragon raised

protected

nurtured

dark hatred

tips of fingers to tips of toes

starved silhouette

pirouettes

silent

through shadows

drives

rapid memories

into mind

turning perversion

mind frothing insanity

boiling

inside out

blood flowing

standing

watch

life

ebbing away.

You think

you feel

I should care more

feel more?

Your society believes 

no matter provocation

I should bow

I should be thankful

survived?

Have you stood

grown men

staring

pre-pubescent

budding nipples

do not sit

judgement

unless you too

have seen

have done 

the things forced upon me.

Defiance found

stand tall

protect at all cost

little girl

found

behind scarred door

locked with chains

keeping

at best

worst of the monsters

out.

©January 26/21

Picture is my own