Fucking Memories

Tears seep
gentle falling
you will never see
you will never know
I am not that woman
the one 
who will not let you go.
I knew.
Other woman…..
I was.
Other woman….. 
I would always be.
Does not stop…..
Heart from wanting.
Heart from caring.
Heart from loving you.
I had to change my notifications.
Every time 
I received a message
thinking from you 
excitement would rise 
hope would spark
until I opened 
disappointment reigns.
Not you.
Never you.
Why does this hurt so much?
You told me I was wonderful.
You told me I was great.
You told me….. 
I was your happy place.
Then you told me good-bye.
Fuck you.
Fuck you.
Fuck you.
Fuck you.
F……U…..C…..K   Y…..O…..U…..
No more tears
will I waste 
on memories 
of you
and 
me.
 
©Sept. 19/20
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King & Queen

You spoke to me today
Looking in my eyes
Playing with my hair
You told me the truth
As I stood here
Vulnerable under your gaze
There is a longing
A need
For you to hold me tight
To hold me near
While I unburden my past
From my lips 
To your ears
Arms around
Whispering 
I have you
As tears threaten to escape
Abuse
Neglect
No one wanted me near
Poison to all who breathed
I stand upon the street corner
Thumbing a ride
I need to run
I need to hide
The pain I bear
The anguish I carry
Overwhelming
Please
Let me hide
You are my King
You hold me tight
Anchor in the night
Chase away the beasts of burden
Carrying nightmares on their back
Baby 
You coo in my ear
My Queen
My Delight
Never more shall pain encompass
Never more shall tears fall
i am you King.
i am your everything
Fight the demons that crave your mind
Crave your pain
I shall gather you in my arms
Forever more
You are safe. 
 
©Nov. 15/19
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