Dream to Come

My muse
My seduction
My misbeaten heart.
Your liquid eyes
Fill me to the brim
Tugging at my heart.
Misconception
Misunderstood
You trigger thoughts
and words
Twisting my tongue
Into lovely tales.
There is no right
There is no wrong
There is just you and I
A dream to come.
©Jay-lyn Doerksen
July 12/18
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Twisted Fate

Sardonic grin
dances across my lips
as I contemplate
that fate
may be having a laugh
at our expense.
First…
the sea was way too choppy.
Second…
the air too salty.
Finally you come ashore.
The beacon flared bright.
I watched
I waited
I only wanted to have you.
Time though
it ticks past
making mock of my mood.
Batteries die
storms come alive
the police got in the way.
What the hell?
What is it about you and me
that has the gods in an uproar?
What do we share
ties
ideas
want of being
that karma strives so hard
to keep us apart?
Jay-lyn Doerksen
June 29/18
 Photo by Ryan Young on Unsplash

Caught

When you look at me

your smile on your lips

my stomach does a flip

and butterflies soar.

When you touch my hand

pulling me in close

my breath catches

as I stare in your eyes.

I keep telling myself

not to do this

not to fall

for heartache is brutal

I have felt.

Swooning

your lips pressed to my ear

you whisper sweet nothings

stroking my hair.

Even as I fall

even as I let go

I know deep down

this happiness is fleeting.

I do not care.

I will live.

I will love.

I will be myself.

 

 

How do I know?

Truth or dare
how do I know you like me?
Question and answer
I am sure you already know
so I smile naively.
Serious though
pensive
cannot figure out
what I see
what I want
when I have no need.
I said adios
to my lovers of the past
telling all
that it would be unfair.
Unfair of me to continue
to reach out
kept in the wings
as if already admitting defeat.
There is one way
that will tell you
exactly how I feel…..
I cleaned my car
vacuumed
dust wiped
all in case
you might see the inside.
©Jay-lyn Doerksen
June 30/18
Photo by Thought Catalog on Unsplash

Pain Abates

My heart breaks in two
as I say goodbye to you
when all I want is to stay.
Time has come
to be on my way
no longer waiting
for you to chose, her or I?
Moving forward
taking a chance
the chance I gave you
rebuffed
left to cry
my heart settles heavy
farewell my Prince Charm.
I wanted once more
to be held in yours arms
to feel your body’s heat.
Not meant to be
you left me
scarred
tears stinging my eyes
howling with pain
crumpled in a ball.
I rose above it.
I chose to be strong.
I will love again
as my heart is not made
to be left unheld.
©Jay-lyn Doerksen
June 29/18
Photo by Shashank Sahay on Unsplash

Deleted

Tears of crystal submission
burn my cheeks
blinding my sight as I face you
the truth you are holding up.
I created a man
of fiction.
The love I felt
an illusion.
It does not make it easier
in fact
if anything facing this facade
makes me want to hide.
How could I have been so blind?
I am strong enough.
I have learned enough about myself
to know that I am dear.
Watch my ass as I walk away. 
I will stand true
not allow myself to falter
accept a small penance of pain
than move on.
Would you like to know
in 2018
how a woman moves on?
She deletes all your texts.
©Jay-lyn Doerksen
March 4/18
Picture via: https://www.pinterest.ca/aaliyapatel746/minions/?lp=true

Darling Girl: Response to Open Love Letter

Response to:  Open Love Letter  
My darling girl….
you wrote to me
explaining you were scared
not certain
that what I felt was truthful
not actions and words
you felt manipulative.
I do not know who hurt you
who took you apart
made you to feel
that you were not enough.
I want to wrap my arms around
pull you close
feel the tension seep out
as you relax
deep breath
your body leaning into mine.
Your independence
a solid cloak
deflecting my gaze
you work so hard
to remain indifferent.
Your heart weeping
from fear.
Look into my eyes
do you see a lie?
I want you to fall….
fall into me
I want you ….
to trust.
My darling girl
I do so promise
I will not hurt you
blow away your fears
open your heart to mine please.
©Jay-lyn Doerksen
June 22/18
Photo by TNK PHOTO on Unsplash