Why Care?

Heart on Sleeve
Tears in Eyes
Rain
Thunder Overhead
Lightening Streaks
Crack
Boom
Just like myself
falling away
falling down
lost in the rabbit hole
afraid
knew that this would happen
pull knees close
head down
see not the pain
the fear
that fills these eyes
go away
like you promised never to do
leave me behind
broken
yet again
for foolishly believing
that we would always be friends.
I am closed.
I am reserved.
There are reasons that it takes me so long
to warm up
open up
to let you deep within
for everyone leaves me
even when they whisper promises
promises that they won’t
promises that forever they will hold my hand
they will always be
there…..
I love wholeheartedly.
I have no middle ground.
When I open up
When I let you in
When I lay bare my soul before you
it is because I believe(d)
those tender words
that you would be different
that you would never leave.
©April 26/21
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Untitled Relationship Poem #9

Sitting
clouded skies above
turbulent waters below.
Standing
caught
cross winds
lift up
soar
falling fast
screaming
net gone.
No warm arms
folded near.
Memories
times
where there was care
there was love
there was hope…..
fleeting
should never have believed
love is not real.
A farce
a wire wrapped rose
blood letting diamonds
chains
wrapped
suicide by marriage.
Despair
losing self in bitter image
raged bullets
fly from lips
razing chance to reconcile.
Frosted cold
angst ridden
watch dead lovers pass
wrapped in bliss
forgotten pain
forgotten rage
a pretty patina
gloss over reality
nothing will ever change.
©Nov. 23/20
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