Love’s Acceptance

Held
Within the warmth of your arms
Tears falling
Trembling
Blood words fall from my lips
As I recite to you
My dirty past.
No one has ever comforted
No one has ever just listened
Holding me close
Thump of your heart
A lull-a-bye
Soothing
Washing over me
Calming that little girl
Cowering within.
I have seen the shift
eager acceptance
To mild uncertainty
To disgust
As though I were the one
To have called down abuse
A sin 
For which I alone must atone.
Not you.
You cradled me.
You kissed away my tears.
Within you
A protector I have found
A shelter in this violent world. 

©Oct. 5/21
Picture is my Own

Ghosted Love

I never got to meet you.
You never got to hold me.
I was a fool
falling for you.
You were so confused.
Wife
children
how could I compete?
Your voice
I heard
I felt to my core
dreaming of days to come
when I would be yours.
Feel your lips.
Feel your hands.
Feel you.
I knew with certainty
that this would fail
whatever it is that we had
and again 
proven right
realizing I have no recourse
no tears can I shed
in remorse.
It is not a wonder
family for you
always shall come first
recognize that I can.
What I fell for 
a fantasy
a dream
never to be achieved
realized
I must accept.
I fell in love with a dream.
I mourn a ghost
for I knew you not.
 
©Oct. 4/21
Picture is my own