It Will Happen

Tears

streak

drip from eyes

fall to chin

hollow pain

erupting

bringing me to my knees

gasping

head forward

drool

as I sob

nothing has hurt more

than this

feeling discarded

unwanted

even though

I know

deep within

this is not the truth

pain roils

never ending.

Tears continue to seep

stand beneath the shower

sobbing

how could this happen

when I had given so much

bringing forth life…..

I knew this day would come

when I was no longer number one

independence gained

mom’s loss

tender pain

does it ever end?

Or will I cry these tears forever?

A river.

An ocean.

It hurts.

 

©Nov. 26/22

Time Forgot Me

Painfully.

Piece by piece

I clawed back

returned to myself

all the parts that you tore away.

Magic that was forgotten

wends its way through my veins

filling me with golden delight

bathing me in purple gleams

as I rebuild

from broken child

hidden in the shadows

to embracing all the I can be

all that I want to be.

There is life to be had

dreams to be lived

pictures to paint

words to write

gardens to bloom

beneath my finger tips.

I write because I have to

I itch if I don’t.

I paint because I am called to it.

I stare off into space

images and colors

dancing

behind my eyelids

as tears I cry

spatter to the ground

from which springs

a single sprig

ready to grow.

©Oct. 10/22