Never Again

time has ceased to spool
all gone
there is only now.
A now
filled with pain
filled with darkness
filled with sorrow
and rage.
This box I am in
not one of my own making.
imposed on me by the will of others
nothing I can say.
I am not the sum of everyone
I am not the sum of those people
who are trying to corner me
rip free the freedom
the relief that I have found.
Reverting once more
into that small hurting girl I use to be.
Fear becomes a constant companion
causing me to wonder:
have I reverted in reality
or merely seeing the mirage of truth
that others feel is real?
I know this is false
this is not who I am.
Fuzzy headed
try to take the hard won freedom
this life I have built for myself.
I will fight 
I will win
I am never going back there again.
©May 24/19
Picture via Pinterest found by The Eclectic Contrarian



Thought #16

To know that you are gossiping…..and to still gossip….not a sign of ignorance….actually an insight into the person that you are talking about.

Voices Raised

You yell
you scream
you make me feel
like all is my fault
but really?
Let me ask
you fucked her
not me
how am I the one at fault?
You know you did me wrong
you wrecked my soul
my heart.
You promised me
that you loved me
would do anything for me
but you also swore
this would not happen
you would not fall.
Babe all I can say
I don’t know if I love you
the pain I feel
has more to do with respect
with broken trust
than actual love.
Not a  woman
just a child
you as well
come calling when you get tired 
of dirt
of hovels
of paper plates.
I will pick up the pieces.
You will come crawling
I ain’t stupid man.
I know what this game is.
Go ahead
watch me step back
hey babe
whose life means more?
Tongue tied
I know what is done
she ruined our fun
you don’t care
I am sorry to say
she will fuck you 
in the end.
(and she did)
Feb. 11/19

Who Thought Questions Could Be Such Fun?

I was tagged by Crushed Caramel to participate in answering some questions. I am home alone this evening and this looks like a fun thing to do.

Caramel was tagged by Kristian 

Kristian was tagged by Teresa aka The Haunted Wordsmith who was the creator of this question challenge. Have a look at Teresa’s original post to find out what she had in mind: 


  1. Answer the questions you receive (straight, funny, absurd, up to you)
  2. Add three more questions of your own to the list
  3. Tag three people

Teresa’s Questions:

What would Klaatu (The Day the Earth Stood Still) think of Earth if he landed today?

I had to read on Wikipedia about this. Having done so am sure that he would look and than decimate it.

If books’ characters were not imprisoned by their covers, which two characters would make a great couple?

I actually have never considered this. Am not really sure I can even think of two who would make a great couple. Aha got one: Sherlock Holmes and Kay Scarpetta

For US folks: Turkey, Ham, or Something Else on Thanksgiving? For Int’l folks: What is one food you recommend most from your country?

Not sure here either lol being so close to the US our customs/habits tend to overlap.

Kristian”s Questions:

Is there a fictional world that you actually wished existed?

The North from A Song of Ice and Fire series

What song always makes you smile?

Not sure that it makes me smile but my absolute favorite song is Rasputin by Boney M

How do you like your eggs in the morning?

Basted soft and I have finally perfected them. Go Me!

My Questions:

When you went to the play-park as a child, did you have a favourite apparatus? (eg the swings, see-saw, slides, climbing frame)

I loved the swings and the monkey bars. If the park had a spinny thing (like a merry go round without animals) that was another favorite.

If I were to send you a bouquet of flowers – what kind of flowers would you like to see in it?

Crazy Daisys.

When you have a cold, how so you treat it? Do you dose yourself up with items you have bought from the pharmacy or do you have any home remedies you rely on? Is there anything else you do to try to cheer yourself up while you are ill?

I tend to try and let the cold run its course. I do increase my Vitamin C intake though and that seems to help as well.  When ill I tend to lay on the couch wallowing in my suffering surfing Netflix and napping.

My Questions:

What is one tv show you watch where if anyone knew they would be amazed/surprised/confused? A guilty pleasure.

What word do you hate to hear the most?

If you could chose any character from a book to have as a romantic partner who would it be?

I am tagging;

A Dad trying to cope with the loss of his partner and becoming a Single Parent.


The Eclectic Contrarian


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Finish the Story-October #3

I have been given the opportunity to continue the story started by the wonderful writer over at the The Haunted Wordsmith.  I greatly enjoy reading how each of us contributes to making a single story. Please please check out her blog. You will not be disappointed.

The single sheet of paper, so thin, like parchment, seemed to jump into his hand. He looked over the spidery handwriting and realized that no one ever wrote like this today.

My Dearest David;

It has taken so long for you to succumb to your curiosity. During this time I have waited and waited.

I realize that this is confusing to you, but know my love, I have been waiting throughout the cycles of time for you. Every life you have lead moved you further and further away from our love. Now though I sense that you are ready to find me.

I shall wait upon the cliff where first we met.

Please my darling, don’t make me wait.

Love Tabitha.

David stared at the words written and began to feel. Warmth. Desire. Memories teasing, just out of reach. He began to fold the letter up, realizing that he must deliver it. However did he have to? It was actually addressed to him, even if the address was to Number 604.

David did not realize that he was being watched. That through the peephole of Number 604 a brilliant green eye gazed upon him. Crimson lips, wet with saliva, parted and a whispered breath whistled. She hoped that he would succumb, he would take the bait. For she had waited a long time to…….

I am tagging Britchy over at Bitchin’ in the Kitchen to continue the story.


Finish the Story #13 05 Sept. 2018

Finish the Story

The Haunted Wordsmith created the Finish the Story.  She start a story, then another has to pick up the story and add to it, then hand it off to another person, etc. until the story is complete. This has proven to be quite fun in a blogging situation since we all have different approaches.


  1. Copy the story below as it appears when you receive it (and the rules please)
  2. Add somehow to the story in which ever style and length you choose
  3. Tag only 1 person
  4. If you choose to not participate or finish the story, please comment/tag this post so that I know.


Just Put Something On

The clock in the living room flashed 6:00. No one was ready as usual. It was Black Friday in the Harris household. Ben ran through the house looking for his tie, while Jessie screamed about not being able to find her English homework.

“Your tie is hanging on the closet door in the bedroom,” Fay said as she stacked the magazines on the coffee table. “Here is your homework, Jessie.”

Mom to the rescue. It was always up to mom to know where every thing and every one was at all times.

“It’s your fault!” Jordan screamed.

“Is not!” James hollered back.

Jordan and James had fought since they were born. Although if you asked Fay, she would tell you the twins fought even before they were born.

“Young man, will you please go back upstairs and get dressed,” she told her youngest, Casper.

Five minutes later, Jordan and James, Jessie and Ben, were all waiting in the car for Casper and Mom to come out so they could finally get to school and work.

“Casper,” she yelled from the bottom of the steps.

“Ready,” Casper yelled.

He appeared at the top of the stairs wearing a ….

To be continued

a tuxedo.

Casper grinned down at Fay as she shook her head. Casper was her imagination come to life. He told stories and made the whole family act them out. He was a little elfin and whimsy was a part of his day to day.

Casper waited.

“Casper, why are you in your tuxedo? That is only for special occasions.” Fay said in exasperation. “Go back to your room and change right this minute! Your siblings are going to be late for school!”

“I am a super secret agent, there are bad people everywhere, trying to get your chocolate marble super fudge icing cake. I have to stop them!”

Fay sighed, knowing that it was nigh on impossible to change Casper’s mind once it was set. Beckoning him to follow, Fay put her hand on the door knob and……

I am nominating Roy and Dee Kelly over at The Floating Thoughts.  if you have not checked it out please do. They love collaborations with fellow bloggers.

Write with Roy & Dee Kay #4: My Wounded Wings

Another wonderful poetry collaboration. I believe it all comes together beautifully.

The Floating Thoughts

Dear Reader,

We are back with the fourth installment of Multicollaboration for a poem with the WordPress bloggers.

This poem depicts the internal duel of the captive mind to set itself free and follow the heart.

Read now to find out how the WORDPRESS BLOGGERS have weaved independently a beautiful tale in form of a poetry around it.

The poets have been mentioned with their verses and their blog links.

Find time to visit them in order to read beautiful poetry.

PS: Roy & Dee Kay feel humbled and touched by the love and participation shown by all the poets and invite others to join them to spread the creativity across the globe.

captive emotions
ravaged by the indecency of your love
and though the beautiful hurting
is not vented in outward cries
inwardly, every part of me
slowly die
(Sherell )

As I descry these bars yelling confinement

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