Safe Haven

It has been said
more than once
that getting to know me
understand me
see beyond me
is a challenging feat.
I seal my lips
asking question
after question
so I need not answer yours.
I fear to open up
panic to think
I must let anyone in
for should they realize
the darkness
the terror
the pain
that I keep buried inside
they weill cease to love me.
How can that be?
People who are meant to love me
have walked away
ran
from me
when the dark came out to play.
leaving me bereft
alone
disheartened.
although with you
I am beginning….
to talk
to share
to show my depth
for within you
within your arms
I have found a safe haven.
Sept. 24/18
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Plastic Girl

Pious in nature
glaring down
eyes piercing
mouth downward turning
you stare at me
making me feel
making me tremble
with your disgust.
I want to be me
you want me to be right
to be good
to be what you want me to be.
Never once did you look to see
never once did you llisten
never once did you heed my words
instead
turning me into a plastic doll
one who could be posed
ordered
taught to be like you.
espousing all that is good
you crushed me beneath your heel.
I finally decided
enough is enough
I can no longer be
this doll of yours
I need to be me.
Aug. 27/18
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Gilded Cage

Broken and bruised
tattered and torn
eyes haunted with stories untold.
Drifting
uncertain where to turn
until you are washed up
upon the shores of time.
I heard the screams again last night
the brutal rage
it throbbed and rang
filling the air
until I could take no more.
You allow this.
I do not understand
why can you not break free?
What keeps you within the gilded cage
when he beats you
and rapes you
making you less than….
I told you that this was the last time
I would stand by no more
and so I did
shattering him to the core.
I sit in the car
red light bleeding over my face
and though I know I shall burn;
the relief
the smile
that I saw upon your face
will make me happy forever more.
©Jay-lyn Doerksen