Alone

Ghostly
chimes ring in my ears
awakening me
bathed in
awash in
velvet rays of sunlight.
Faintly
a remembrance
words whispered
hot breath
warm hands
desire swelling
peaking
falling
dissipating
while I lay coiled in your arms.
Awareness 
slowly creeps in
tears crawl down my cheeks
for this is naught
but a dream.
Perchance
one day
a time come soon
I will once more be there
comforted
protected
loved again.
I wait…..
tremors to cease
heart to resume beating
time to move forward.
While I……
I remain in the past
caught
in the greatest love affair
of my life.
Tangled web
sticky strands
none let go
none shall stand.
Alone I am.
Alone I shall be.
Alone…….
forever 
eternally.
April 13/19
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No F**KS (Or Prince Charming is Missing)

Broken
standing upon shifting sands
crystal tears
soaked within the parched ground
while I try….
try so hard
to figure out
understand
what I did
to get fucked like this?
Forever
it seems to me
that one iota of happiness
must be torn away
that I am not allowed
to have good things
happen in my life.
I want love.
I want home.
I want a man who
understands
supports
is proud of me.
My Prince Charming
I am pretty sure he is dead
ain’t no man
riding to my rescue
ready to climb my hair.
No one who wants to break bricks
chisel at the mortar
it is time for me to ascertain
that I am the problem
not the solution.
Too needy.
Too clingy.
Too loving…..
too much for so many people.
If you find my Prince Charming
should he ask for directions to my house
please point him
away from me
cause I can no longer give a fuck.
November 20/18