Bleak Moored

Once
(pause, sigh)
I would have felt
drowning
sucked
drawn beneath burgeoning waters
breath held
lungs filled
eyes limpid
sightless
drugs
alcohol
vacuum inside
no where to run
no where to hide.
That once
was my life.
Sea of emotions
swamped
overwhelmed
high
low
no in between
no peace
no serenity
manic laughter
sawing at nerves
reverberates
through tired mind
just want to lie down
just want to let go
just want…..
Strength in spades
I have
powerless
paralyzed with fear
broken
breaking
no longer able to hold
finger tips bleeding
clutching
broken ledge
eating into
poisoned skin
painted cherry smile
even as mouth trembles
down turned.
Fraud
fake
failure
screaming through my mind
turn away from mirrored eyes
pushing down nightmared dreams
pretending
life has meaning.
©Nov. 26/20
Picture is my own

She’s a Bitch

Snide lips
twisted
rasping laughter
roaring
cowering beneath the onslaught
feeling cold fingers
plunge
into anguished brain
voices
so many
pushing
yelling
telling
poking
breaking
heart roaring
faster
death is coming
eyes squeezed shut
hands over ears
cower in fetal position
no way to hide
no way to run
she will always find you
she will always come
she will snark
she will snort
she will find a way in
never to leave
no matter how you beg
she has come
for the duration
she is a Bitch
with a capital B
one everyone wishes
they could rid themselves of.
©August 18/20
Picture is my own