Death’s Mastery

***I realize that this is very dark and disturbing. The emotions that I have drawn upon are not what I am feeling today. These are the echoes I can recall and express from the dark days of late 2017 and early 2018.*****

Blank sighted

mind aswirl

twisting

reaching out

reaching in

nightmare visions

stop…..

please…..

stop them.

Pain

day after day

night after night

cripples my heart

cripples my body

cripples my mind

unable to move

tears fall

unchecked

river flowing free

curled inward

falling

vile cesspooled pit.

Mouth open

silent screams

reverberate

penetrating to soul

rending

devoured

black ghouls

fattened upon gristled drips

sliver thin

sliced

keen blade

mind in torment.

Understand…..

This is not a cell.

This is not a jail

that I have created

for I want attention

for I need adulation

for I need care…..

it is my mind

caging me

castigating me

slowly killing me.

Unseen death

walking waking nightmare

upon this path

only I can go…..

light recedes

black encroaches

times I believe

death

would be better than this…..

©April 27/20

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Ebony Voiced

Grey shadowed fingers

reaching

twisting

plundering

stealing from mind

command of speech

suspend belief

compromised.

Into me 

they do reach.

Tears

unbidden

shuddering shoulders

stay away

creature of the night

become twisted

haunted eyes

seeing

past

present

future

bleak

wraith like

misted move.

Scuttling

head down

eyes gouged

blind

from arrogance

hatred

negligence

black ribbon chains

stealing my sanity.

My heart shrinks

wrapped in on self

no longer light

no longer buoyant

shackled

pain laden

dragged to the bottom of the rock.

I see no rescue

I see no saviour

I see…..

black nothingness

a future

the gods have allowed me to see.

©April 2/20

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