Death’s Mastery

***I realize that this is very dark and disturbing. The emotions that I have drawn upon are not what I am feeling today. These are the echoes I can recall and express from the dark days of late 2017 and early 2018.*****
Blank sighted
mind aswirl
twisting
reaching out
reaching in
nightmare visions
stop…..
please…..
stop them.
Pain
day after day
night after night
cripples my heart
cripples my body
cripples my mind
unable to move
tears fall
unchecked
river flowing free
curled inward
falling
vile cesspooled pit.
Mouth open
silent screams
reverberate
penetrating to soul
rending
devoured
black ghouls
fattened upon gristled drips
sliver thin
sliced
keen blade
mind in torment.
This is not a cell.
This is not a jail
that I have created
for I want attention
for I need adulation
for I need care…..
it is my mind
caging me
castigating me
slowly killing me.
Unseen death
walking waking nightmare
upon this path
only I can go…..
light recedes
black encroaches
times I believe
death
would be better than this…..
©April 27/20
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Ebony Voiced

Grey shadowed fingers
reaching
twisting
plundering
stealing from mind
command of speech
suspend belief
compromised.
Into me 
they do reach.
Tears
unbidden
shuddering shoulders
stay away
creature of the night
become twisted
haunted eyes
seeing
past
present
future
bleak
wraith like
misted move.
Scuttling
head down
eyes gouged
blind
from arrogance
hatred
negligence
black ribbon chains
stealing my sanity.
My heart shrinks
wrapped in on self
no longer light
no longer buoyant
shackled
pain laden
dragged to the bottom of the rock.
I see no rescue
I see no saviour
I see…..
black nothingness
a future
the gods have allowed me to see.
©April 2/20
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