Should Have…..

Sat upon the hill
blushed sky
silhouetted birds
against fluffed white clouds
emerald grass beneath feet
pondering
essence of self
of love
of life
of everything.
Relationships fail
through lack of faith
lack of trust
lack of love
or
just because…..
people fall together
they fall apart
neither at fault
life happens that way.
Tears fall
memories
ghosts of times passed…..
lingering upon my lips
taste of kisses
none ever sweeter
than the ones
you covered me with.
Your fingers
made me witless
legs shaking
moaning whimpers
calling your name.
Shaking my head
anger does rise
for you are now dead
to me
in my life
for all eternity.
I should have ignored the beep.
I should have ignored the ding.
Had I…..
message would not have to be unseen
heart not torn apart
your infidelity
right there
no longer able to deny
my world
blown
from ashes I shall slowly rise.
©May 3/20
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Foolish Fantasy

Rain…..
Face pressed to window
tears
unseen
watching for headlights
straining to hear
knowing you are not to come.
Days grey
sodden wool
walking zombie
bitter pill.
Warned I was
tuck
run
do not look back
only hurt I would be.
Foolish woman
I should have heeded
my own inner voice
the one screaming
begging
for me to flee.
Deep down
I knew
before we even met
how hard I would fall
how I would regret
giving over my heart
to someone with no trust.
Faith.
I had…..
Disappointed
I am…..
Forward
backwards
time will always ebb & flow.
©March 6/20
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