Rawr!

I was that girl

faded

quiet

always on the outskirts

looking in

lost

alone

afraid.

I was that teenager

wild

frantic

lost

a whirl storm

emotions

deadly

unforgiving

I lost myself to hell.

Young woman.

Mother.

During it all

part of me

lodged still

in bars of my own creating

mired in the cesspool of past abuses

unseen

unwanted

until addiction’s hold passes.

Today

victory reigns

head held high

as I behold

who I have become

who I want to be

who I need to be…..

Caring

Empathetic

Loving

Wanting

Dreaming

Desiring

Life.

I am what society now calls middle age.

I refuse to accept their constraints.

I am a Goddess.

I am a Lioness.

I am a Queen.

Never again will I forget.

©April 12/21

Picture via Pinterest

Soar the Dawn

Stood

lost upon a plain

a mountain

a chasm

cumbersome load

upon my shoulders

wanting

to lay it down

relieve myself of this burden

carried through time

through years

an albatross

tied

I thought.

Shackled

to wrist

to waist

to ankle

never to be free.

Forever

alone

beneath a mask of fear

catacombs of anger

deadly desires.

Golden rays

break beyond horizon

symbolic

throw away

remnants of past

freeing

finally

from neglect

from dusty shelves

the truth

of my inner self.

©March 21/21

Picture is my own