Third Benefit

Day 13 of not drinking.
I have discovered the third benefit to being sober.
Creativity.
It is not that I don’t write as I do.
Ideas do not flow though so easily.
Brain clears.
Whoomp!
Fire all neurons into the imagination zone and let her go.
I have ideas all the time.
My poems are coming more clearly within moments of seeing the Word of the Day Challenge. (Today’s is a hard one needing to mull)
Each day forward is a win.
Each time I defeat that voice (the one that tried to tell me wine was not really alcohol)-squashed in its tracks is a win.
Each day I look in the mirror I see clearer eyes and skin.
Not looking haggard.
My hair is feeling less crispy.
And all the soda bloat is disappearing.
Total win.
Cataloguing the wins is easy to do.
Cataloguing the ills even easier to do.
I am stronger than this addiction.
I will always be stronger than this addiction.
I will never let this addiction win again.
©July 31/20
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Covid-19

I think that I am being sucked dry of my creativity. Not that there is not an abundance of ideas but they do not gel and I am so tired. The words are not there.

Covid-19. Who knew that it would change the world? Who knew it would change the way we live? Who knew?

Today for the first time in 5 weeks I was able to get a pack of toilet paper. And that is because a co-worker put aside for me. Thank goodness it is only me and Tember at home or else I would have been in trouble.

Appetite is hit and miss. I am stress drinking which I know is so unhealthy. So so unhealthy and there is no excuse other than……it is stress.

I am hoping that this week is just one of those weeks. I am hoping that as I do not have to get up in the morning no alarm set I can get my groove back.

Stay safe everyone.

🙂

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