It Will Happen

Tears
streak
drip from eyes
fall to chin
hollow pain
erupting
bringing me to my knees
gasping
head forward
drool
as I sob
nothing has hurt more
than this
feeling discarded
unwanted
even though
I know
deep within
this is not the truth
pain roils
never ending.
Tears continue to seep
stand beneath the shower
sobbing
how could this happen
when I had given so much
bringing forth life…..
I knew this day would come
when I was no longer number one
independence gained
mom’s loss
tender pain
does it ever end?
Or will I cry these tears forever?
A river.
An ocean.
It hurts.
 
©Nov. 26/22

Fucking Memories

Tears seep
gentle falling
you will never see
you will never know
I am not that woman
the one 
who will not let you go.
I knew.
Other woman…..
I was.
Other woman….. 
I would always be.
Does not stop…..
Heart from wanting.
Heart from caring.
Heart from loving you.
I had to change my notifications.
Every time 
I received a message
thinking from you 
excitement would rise 
hope would spark
until I opened 
disappointment reigns.
Not you.
Never you.
Why does this hurt so much?
You told me I was wonderful.
You told me I was great.
You told me….. 
I was your happy place.
Then you told me good-bye.
Fuck you.
Fuck you.
Fuck you.
Fuck you.
F……U…..C…..K   Y…..O…..U…..
No more tears
will I waste 
on memories 
of you
and 
me.
 
©Sept. 19/20
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