Hero of my Heart

All I want…..
your hands on my body
your lips
trailing kisses neck to knees.
I want to feel….. 
desire
to squirm with delight
your body against mine.
I imagine…..
things that only you can do.
I imagine….. 
kisses that only you can give.
I imagine….. 
hunger filled nights
sated mornings
I imagine…..
dreams
floating on clouds
and soft beds.
I imagine…..
a love like the ones read.
I imagine…..
a life
as found in fantasy
and wonder
was I once a fairy princess?
Where is my Hunter?
Sent to capture and instead…..
makes love.
Where is my King?
Who sees the truth and still…..
craves me.
Where is my Jester?
Touched by the ugliness
the horror
of heart and soul
of demons I cannot shed
he comes to me.
Protector.
Guardian.
Champion.
White knight 
on a fine white steed.
Hero of my heart.
©April 21/19
Picture via Pinterest
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Now & Forever

Feeling the brush of your lips
against the side of my neck
your hand holding my hair
caught tight in your fist
I tremble.
Desire flooding my body
betrayal
worst kind
still I want you
your hands
lips
body pressed to mine.
Teeth nipping sensitive skin
fingers digging
moans
struggling to keep them from you
not wanting to give in
fighting to control
knowing that I cannot.
I am powerless.
Flash that smile
chocolate eyes melting
I will fall to my knees
head bent in submission
defenseless
your voice curls
guttural
thick with passion
unable to stand
you have me at your mercy.
I am writhing.
I am yours.
Now 
&
Forever more.
©April 20/19
Picture via Pinterest and found by The Eclectic Contrarian.

Picture Prompt #1

***John over at The Eclectic Contrarian sent me two picture prompts to work from. This is the first one.***
Ribbons of desire
swathed in bliss
enraptured
captured
I draw you in.
Your heart to mine
your lips on mine
your hands on my hips
guiding
balancing
pulling me in.
In my dreams
we are dancing
an intimate caress
full blown
wave upon wave
cresting
questing
drowning in our need.
Drifting
I reach for you
fingers graze
you slip away
leaving me dazed.
Awake
sodden pillow beneath
hollow
empty
dream lingering on my lips.
April 6/19

Untitled Word of the Day Poem #23

Tell me
is it easy?
To deny?
To look aside
from our love?
I know
not dreams
not fantasy
truth
neither of us had seen.
Welling
rage
tears
pain
fear
look in my eyes
tell me dear
that you love me not.
I wonder
am I ridiculous?
I will play
I will pet
call me when you will
I will come.
tail between my legs
biting my inner lip.
I need you
want you
love your so.
Where do we go?
What path do we take?
Tell me lover
tell me true
what the hell
is going on…..
between me and you?
Is this an act?
When you brush my hair back
look deep into my eyes
lips so close
I can feel breath
upon my neck
making me blush
tremble
weak at the knees.
I want to believe
we will be
as once we were
we shall be again.
In my heart
secrets caged
love I feel
so hard to let go
although…..
I pretend
I turn aside
crazy smile on my lips
yearnings I have
not to speak.
Fallen hard I have
desperate to let go
knowing
you have my heart
my love
forever more.
Feb. 25/19

Untitled Relationship Poem #8

***I began this back in December. Today I finished it off. Creatively.***
Did you do this to suck me back in?
I build up this fantasy
I attribute to you
ideas
feelings
desires
which are mine
not yours.
I hurt myself
thinking that there is a possibility
you might want me as much as I want you.
Tell me true……
do you love me?
do you miss me?
do you want me still?
I want to twine my arms
my legs
my body around yours.
I want to
feel safe
feel desired
feel wanted.
I miss you so……
but 
I need to know
am I only a game to you?
Tell me true
do not lead me on
not by the nose
not by the…….
please
I need the truth
which I hold dear.
Truth I espouse.
I need it.
Lies are evil
torn me down
hurt me
left me a bleeding mess
emotionally.
Do not lie to me.
I have never lied to you. 
Never.
This is me…..
down on my knees…….
begging you please…..
do not hurt me. 
 
Feb. 23/19

Trust you….Do?

Trust.
The ability to believe
to understand
that the words spoken
are the ones you mean.
I do not trust.
Too many men
made promises
built sand castles
promised the world
only to stand watch
as the darkening current
swept me away.
Trust.
Given to none
for they do not care.
I desire to give to you
my trust……..
yet…..
I have no faith
I have no trust
I have stood here alone
for so very very long.
You present your hand
a gentle smile
encouraging me to cross.
Leap the brook
toes dance on rocks
you pull me into your arms.
I cradle close
hearing your heart
feeling your arms
wrapped around me….
Trust.
I have given it to you
please
do not make me undone.
©Jay-lyn Doerksen
Feb. 19/19

Win/Win

Its kinda hard
these feelings that I have
I play
I pretend
so my friends
they don’t realize.
My heartache.
My pain.
My wicked dreams.
I know
these screams
locked inside my head
these truths that I see
there is no doubt
fool that I be.
On my knees
realizing
knowing
no end
fuck me
like a tether
between my teeth.
Do you understand?
bit between the teeth….
shackled in
shod
pain filled
tears
slow streaks upon the pane.
My
oh my
are you a figment of my dreams?
A broken wish 
made upon a dead star?
Is what you feel
what I feel
a blissful memory?
Or
lost
your what the fuck
my wanna kick your…….
we both got our way.
December 16/18