Not for You

You wrapped me in silk

pampered

loved

put me in the clouds

made me to feel as Queen

when in reality

I was only a cheap stopping place.

Fantasies

rose colored glasses

hunger so deep.

I needed to be made to feel

as though I was the first

the only choice.

One made with thought

insight

understanding

do not make promises you cannot keep.

I was not…..

First.

A thought.

You never saw inside of me

read the print of my skin

heard my truth.

I became one more in a long line of……

acquisitions

notches upon the bed posts

fool that I was

thinking

dreaming that I was your last one.

Rage

black

boiling

searing blood

sizzling in my veins

head thrown back

screaming in vain.

Love has turned…..

from sunshine blossoms

to dislike

a wiping of my mind

of my memories.

So long

goodbye

never again will I cry.

Not for you.

©June 11/19

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