I’m Done…..

Got my new tires put on my car this afternoon.
New used tires the ex got for me.
He installed them while I set up his Kindle for him.
First though I had to set up his email address.
Then I set up his Amazon account.
Signed him up for Freebooksy-free kindle book links.
Most of my books come from here and the authors I have discovered…..
I have so many books to read…..
As an aside my plan is to read more more more this summer.
Laying in the sun is good for that.
Back to the Ex.
You might wonder as to why I am doing all of this for him.
He is pretty tech illiterate but wants to start reading again so I am helping him out. If Tember also sees him reading I am hoping he too will pick up a book.
Also we work to be friends.
For Tember.
For ourselves.
After he put the tires on the car we were sitting in the sun talking. Or rather I was trying to read while he talked at me.
His phone starts pinging.
His girlfriend.
The woman who I have helped through numerous upsets with the ex.
Needless to say despite having been invited for dinner I am at home. Having leftovers.
It made her upset and uncomfortable that I was there so I left. This way she could come over and have an evening with him.
Tember was disappointed and folks I really wanted to say something but I kissed him and told him I would see him tomorrow.
I am done trying.
©July 4/20
Picture is my own. Taken from out front of my place July 3/20.

Untitled Poem #12

I look back
fondly at times
angry at others
on memories I have of you.
From the day we met
to the last one
where you lost
the best thing
the best person
to have ever entered your life.
Pain radiates
filling the gaps left behind
our family destroyed
children left mewling
at mother’s breast
while you just…..
went.
Divorce is never easy
ours so acrimonious
vile words
accusations on both sides
bleeding tears
aggression
finally to being done.
I watched you walk away
a sharp wrench
heart breaking
you never looked back once.
December 24/18