Rabbit’s Hole

I fell down a rabbit’s hole

to a land

of mimes

mimicry

fancy mirrors

and plenty of regrets.

Plethoras

multitudes

legions

wasted on the sidelines

watching deranged

demented

delirious

clowns on unicycles

desperate

for appreciation

adoration

admiration.

Immature boys

wrestled with bears.

Immature girls

walking on broken glass

along a tight rope.

I slowed to watch

like an accident

mine eyes

could not leave the sight.

Grimacing

cloying stench penetrating

I backed away

turning to run.

Caricature of the Devil

Lucifer himself

pitchfork in hand

ready to prod me back

stood ‘afore me.

I looked at him

with a wink

an impudent smile

walked forward

poof

the illusion disappeared.

Before me

a land racked

wrecked

grey

bleak

dying.

Why am I here?

What am I to do?

And where is the rabbit hole

home again?

January 7/19

Picture via: https://firstyeareagleutm.wordpress.com/2016/01/25/falling-down-the-rabbit-hole/

Good bye My Love

I have fallen

not at your feet

but within myself

and there is no going back.

Now

you are entwined with my past

the hurt

the pain that I feel.

I wish that it had not happened this way

I wish that I could still be yours

yet I know

there is no way

that I can submit to you again.

My way of saying good-bye

it was not right

I should have explained further

I should have explained it at all

there is no way of knowing

what monsters lay in my bed.

Memories that have been hidden

you brought to the forefront

the anguish

the pain

the darkness that enveloped

I curled within myself.

Screaming in my head.

I am sorry my love

I wish it could  be different

we must walk away

while love is still everlasting.

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Jay-lyn Doerksen

July 26/17