Choices

Explain to me please
how it is so easy for you 
to hurt me.
I gave you my all
my everything……
I fell in love with you
I thought you loved me too
but I discovered
only one heart was true..
Sure as hell wasn’t yours.
So…..
that means
it was mine.
Fragile…..
Broken….. 
Bleeding…..
Abused……
I loved you
(damn it I love you still)
I gave you my heart
you threw it back
as though I was a joke.
(I am in such pain)
I cry
tears 
sobs
heart wrenched free.
I want to be
yours again.
I want to have…..
sense of security
sense of pride
sense of being wanted.
You have fucked me
so badly
yet I cannot stop.
I will love you forever
in my heart.
Tears spill
no matter how hard I push you away
your memory
your touch
I am lost in you……
let me go
pull me near
just please
make up your fucking mind.
March 3/19

Thought #10

There comes a moment when the child becomes the parent and the parent becomes the child. This is the moment when reality strikes home as to the fragility of life and our time within.

**Picture is mine taken at Matlock Beach Manitoba summer 2017**