I’m Done…..

Got my new tires put on my car this afternoon.
New used tires the ex got for me.
He installed them while I set up his Kindle for him.
First though I had to set up his email address.
Then I set up his Amazon account.
Signed him up for Freebooksy-free kindle book links.
Most of my books come from here and the authors I have discovered…..
I have so many books to read…..
As an aside my plan is to read more more more this summer.
Laying in the sun is good for that.
Back to the Ex.
You might wonder as to why I am doing all of this for him.
He is pretty tech illiterate but wants to start reading again so I am helping him out. If Tember also sees him reading I am hoping he too will pick up a book.
Also we work to be friends.
For Tember.
For ourselves.
After he put the tires on the car we were sitting in the sun talking. Or rather I was trying to read while he talked at me.
His phone starts pinging.
His girlfriend.
The woman who I have helped through numerous upsets with the ex.
Needless to say despite having been invited for dinner I am at home. Having leftovers.
It made her upset and uncomfortable that I was there so I left. This way she could come over and have an evening with him.
Tember was disappointed and folks I really wanted to say something but I kissed him and told him I would see him tomorrow.
I am done trying.
©July 4/20
Picture is my own. Taken from out front of my place July 3/20.

Knight of Compassion

Take my hand
let me help you
I know your pain
I know that voice
the one that says
worthless
stupid
incompetent.
It is false.
It is vile.
It needs to be destroyed.
Insipid fool
hissed in your ear
demon on your shoulder
notion
half glimpsed
turn head
nothing there
grey gloom
surrounding.
Bleak
sun hidden
black fears
reaching out
anguished.
When does this end?
When does the beast die?
Take the hand I offer little one
wrapped in my arms
protection
Warrior Queen I be.
I will pierce the darkness.
I will be your shield.
I will be your sword.
I will be your champion
slaying demons
reminding you of your worth. 
©May 5/20
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