Bitter Revenge

‘Why does it have to be that hard?’
‘Um……you really have to ask me that?
You do not have the…..hmmmm…..
to figure this out on your own?
You broke my heart.
You did more than break it.
You shattered me
myself
my confidence
for that you must atone.’
‘I didn’t mean to though. 
It sorta happened.
C’mon 
you can forgive me 
without this nonsense.’
Nonsense?
Making you work
for the love that you broke?
Tis unfair to ask you to prove it?
To prove to me
that my worth to you
is no longer negligible?
This is nonsense?
‘But babe 
I said that I was sorry.
I promised it would never happen again.’
Derisive snort.
Please boy
how stupid do you think I am?
I have heard this litany
over and over.
I know the outcome
I know this game
so yes
show me true
your love for me
bury this body
and all will be forgiven.
As he stood
forlorn
over the bundled carpet
unsure of how to proceed
I pulled out my gun.
Shot him in the head.
Dead.
Falling forward
downward
right into the hole
I had already dug.
‘I promised babe.
Why?
Why did you do this?’
Sullen ghost
standing beside unmarked grave
ready to haunt me
into the ground.
Last laugh
I do get….
for…..
circle of salt
shall keep my poor ghost enclosed
kept by my side
in bitter revenge.
January 19/19
Photo by Andre Hunter on Unsplash

Untitled Relationship Poem #4

Sadness.
Inevitable.
A cloak of darkness
a mantle
blankets me
entering my heart
shredding my emotions
making me cry.
Tears fall from blinded  eyes.
In the corner I stand
eyes furtive
settling on no one
calling no attention to myself.
I wonder how I can be so lonely
in a room full of people.
I move
a shadow
brief stirring of air
as I pass
leaving the room .
None notice.
I have made no impression.
I am not the one you are looking for
when your eyes rove around the room.
I am not the one.
Never was I the one.
You played with me
toyed with me
adoration shining from my eyes
unable to see
but a brief stop was I
you never meant to stay.
Tears fall
crumpled in a heap
loneliness assaulting 
black bottomless pain
ripping me apart.
January 13/19

Soulless

Look into the maw
gleaming blackness
shrouding your fear.
See the ghost gliding
walking forward
silent feet.
Faces flash
one after the other
nightmares of your past.
Open your mouth to scream
to denounce the burden
when it jumps.
On your back
blinking
the ghost
nay a demon true
hunkers on your chest
and inhales.
Long deep breath
feel a shifting
a tear at your heart.
Lone crystal
trickles down curved cheek
as the soulless
devours your soul
alive for a brief moment
leaving you dead within.
Jay-lyn Doerksen
July 10/18

Obsession

**Found picture on Internet**
I am a passing shadow
seen from the corner of your eye
ignored.
You pretend not to see me
when I am standing in front of you.
Loving you
dreading you
wishing that you would hold me tight.
I feel you
do you feel me?
Loving
reaching
hating
leaving
cannot let go
do not deny…..
Nothing can batter
nothing can bruise
only arms twined
lips touching
hearts beating
love so true.
I can see it why can’t you?