Bitter Revenge

‘Why does it have to be that hard?’
‘Um……you really have to ask me that?
You do not have the…..hmmmm…..
to figure this out on your own?
You broke my heart.
You did more than break it.
You shattered me
myself
my confidence
for that you must atone.’
‘I didn’t mean to though. 
It sorta happened.
C’mon 
you can forgive me 
without this nonsense.’
Nonsense?
Making you work
for the love that you broke?
Tis unfair to ask you to prove it?
To prove to me
that my worth to you
is no longer negligible?
This is nonsense?
‘But babe 
I said that I was sorry.
I promised it would never happen again.’
Derisive snort.
Please boy
how stupid do you think I am?
I have heard this litany
over and over.
I know the outcome
I know this game
so yes
show me true
your love for me
bury this body
and all will be forgiven.
As he stood
forlorn
over the bundled carpet
unsure of how to proceed
I pulled out my gun.
Shot him in the head.
Dead.
Falling forward
downward
right into the hole
I had already dug.
‘I promised babe.
Why?
Why did you do this?’
Sullen ghost
standing beside unmarked grave
ready to haunt me
into the ground.
Last laugh
I do get….
for…..
circle of salt
shall keep my poor ghost enclosed
kept by my side
in bitter revenge.
January 19/19
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Untitled Relationship Poem #4

Sadness.
Inevitable.
A cloak of darkness
a mantle
blankets me
entering my heart
shredding my emotions
making me cry.
Tears fall from blinded  eyes.
In the corner I stand
eyes furtive
settling on no one
calling no attention to myself.
I wonder how I can be so lonely
in a room full of people.
I move
a shadow
brief stirring of air
as I pass
leaving the room .
None notice.
I have made no impression.
I am not the one you are looking for
when your eyes rove around the room.
I am not the one.
Never was I the one.
You played with me
toyed with me
adoration shining from my eyes
unable to see
but a brief stop was I
you never meant to stay.
Tears fall
crumpled in a heap
loneliness assaulting 
black bottomless pain
ripping me apart.
January 13/19