Autumn’s Tears

Always wrong
tears
slow seep
caress
salted lips
fear
pain
wishes
all out in front
no lies
no mistruths
everything is as I want it
everything is as I see it
everything is a lonely space
for while I reach
you pull away
leaving me searching for more.
What happened to happy ever afters?
Why am I so scarred
men would rather run
then see the nightmare sitting 
waiting 
with bated breath
for me to stumble
for me to fall
for like a lover
it will catch me
cradle me
while destroying me.
No longer willing to try.
No longer willing to not be a choice.
No longer willing…..
to accept less then
to being second place 
to being only useful when you want me.
There is more
a light
failed to be seen
your loss
not mine
so sorry
hope that graveyard of dreams
of broken wants
of destroyed needs
fill your nights
in ways 
I seem unable to.
Tip my hat.
Time to go.
So sorry.
So hard.
Bye bye.
I can no longer wait to be yours.
 
©Oct. 8/20
Picture is my own

Slow Erosion

Each tear
each hurt
each neglection
add too many
barricading
no longer do I wonder
time is mine own
apparent
you have made
lack of desire
to be with
unless
on terms you dictate.
Times you demand
without thought
consideration
gentle soul
caring heart
flayed
grated
blown
dust motes
dance through air
only beauty
coming from
what once was
golden dreams…..
love
lasting.
Fool I was.
Kiss good bye…..
the best
you could have had
ever would have had
watch my ass
see the finger
take a hike
get out of my life
and don’t let the door
hit ya on the way out.
©Aug. 31/20
Picture is my own