Word of the day Challenge #93-Untitled Poem

Shattered
blood red tears
rending at clothes
at hair
at skin
gouging
nails slicing
anything to stop the pain.
I never lied about what I wanted.
I never lied about what I expected.
I never lied about what I was feeling.
I never lied at all.
What you see
is what you get
no more
no less.
This woman
standing
naked before you
baring soul
bitter past
fragile
vulnerable
patchwork quilt
scars
taped together with experience.
I knew
heart bleeding
I knew how dangerous
voices
screaming
kicked into silence
this would be.
I built an illusion.
I built a fantasy.
I built……
but one memory
how you held me
when I bared my truth
my past
like no other man has done.
©March 16/20
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Ta Ta

A sigh of finality
letting this fantasy go
what was shared
gone forever more.
Tears well
shedding 
scattering 
prisms in my eyes
glancing down
heart breaking
I can no longer deny.
I stalk you
you stalk me
we know
we follow
we want to be.
In each others lives.
I wonder sometimes
if I am a fool?
If I read too much?
Old time romance
flowers at my feet
sweet words whispered in my ear
swept away
knocked to my knees.
Tick tock
I watch the clock
counting down
hours
minutes
seconds
admitting finally
to myself
you love me no more.
Tears sparkle
rainbow prisms on the wall
I forget…..
desperate to forget
what you showed me.
Love
desire
trust.
Why did you damage me such?
Why did I damage you?
I look up
you look down
dimwit
kneeling here.
I realize
you have said your good-byes.
I accept it now.
I bow my head
so none can see
fool that I am.
See not the tears
tremors of hands
lips curled down
forlorn
lost…..
 
Ta Ta 
hear the bells ring
death knell 
to our dream.
 
March !6/19