Truth’s Soft Sadness

Autumn’s crimson
golden blondes
faded
crushed to black
as earth cools
sending to sleep
Nature’s denizens.
Warmth from the sun
fleeting
a sad small gesture of defiance
in summer’s waning days.
Fallen leaves
blanket the ground
breath fresh on the air
frost on the blades of grass.
Honking geese flee the sky
another herald of summer done
sand is boxed
sun set to side
now we must
return from fantasy land.
I must let you go
let you return to your life
ignore these crystal tears
for you have moved on
even when you say that you have not
but baby
I know the truth.

©Oct. 3/19
Picture is my own

I weep…..

**Picture found on Internet**
I weep….
sitting beneath the spreading limbs
of the oak tree
where first we made love.
I weep….
rememberances of our time together
spearing the air before me
as you leave my life.
I weep….
not with regret
not with pain
not with hate
but with sorrow for you.
I weep….
knowing that you shall never understand
the truth that I offered to you
the life that you could have had
if only you would reach.
I weep….
with sadness
for alone you shall be
never knowing
what love offered
unhindered
unfettered
with my own wants and needs.
I weep….
having to whisper goodbye
because no longer
am I able to hold you near.
©Jay-lyn Doerksen

Today

***In memory of Christina Helgason-Bryga

As I stood beneath the shower

my face turned into the stream

my mouth open in a silent howl

tears erased by the rain.

I could not understand

this piercing grief that I feel

the hollow where my heart once beat

until it suddenly dawned,

today was the day I lost you.

Today was the day you never had a chance

to say hello or good-bye.

Today was the day I held you silent and breathless

in my arms.

Every year I have marked your birthday

every year I have found ways to hide

to drink away the pain,

to ignore the sorrow.

Today I mourn you with all my heart

today tears flow without restraint.

Today is the day my daughter was born

today was the day she soared.

©Jay-lyn Doerksen

Nov. 14/17