Why Care?

Heart on Sleeve
Tears in Eyes
Rain
Thunder Overhead
Lightening Streaks
Crack
Boom
Just like myself
falling away
falling down
lost in the rabbit hole
afraid
knew that this would happen
pull knees close
head down
see not the pain
the fear
that fills these eyes
go away
like you promised never to do
leave me behind
broken
yet again
for foolishly believing
that we would always be friends.
I am closed.
I am reserved.
There are reasons that it takes me so long
to warm up
open up
to let you deep within
for everyone leaves me
even when they whisper promises
promises that they won’t
promises that forever they will hold my hand
they will always be
there…..
I love wholeheartedly.
I have no middle ground.
When I open up
When I let you in
When I lay bare my soul before you
it is because I believe(d)
those tender words
that you would be different
that you would never leave.
©April 26/21
Picture is my own

And than there was One

Today was the day.
My friend came and picked up two of the kittens. Blackie and Itty Bitty.
I cried. I am not going to lie. I love animals and wish that I could keep them all. However not able to do so.
Loki will be remaining with us. Thomas keeps trying to bite him or rather dominate him and Loki is having none of that. Thomas keeps trying to bite his throat to get him to submit and Loki keeps fighting him off. And Thomas is so fat the fact that he is being defeated by such a little guy is kind of funny.
I know the other two are going to a great home. I will get pictures and updates.
But my heart hurt a little when I said goodbye.
©July 27/20
Picture is my own of Loki