Cold Comfort

How do I do it?
How do I get through the day?
When inside
I have felt death's cold hand
I have stared into his pitiless eyes
letting go of my heart.
You want me to smile.
You want me to comfort you.
You want.....
you want.....
you want.....
behind closed doors
you do not want to be 
to hear the screams
to see me fall
crumpled 
clutching a broken teddy bear.
You wonder if life is getting on
and I wonder
when pain is all you know
holding you in its nettled embrace
do you begin to live?
Insensitive.
Ignorant.
I cannot.....
comfort you.
I cannot.....
smile as you suggest.
Grey skies
reflect my state of mind
slate cold
shards of rain
slashing through
as I wander.
No destination. 
No desire.
Nothing.
Only darkness
a bleak cold future
that is what I see.....
And how are you?

©Jan. 13/22

Malocchio

Black.

So very black.

Against verdant

emerald burns

gaping sorrow cuts deep

bloodless

no tears are left to shed.

Head bowed

keep eyes to the ground

so no one can see my rage

taking the simmering

vile soul sucking fury

wrapping it close

trembling taken as pain

hold me up.

I know.

I know what you do.

I know what you did. 

You bastard

my teeth shall rend

ten…..

no…..

twenty…..

(hear me roar)

no….. 

hundred fold…..

no…..

eternally

shall the pain

the degradation 

reaped upon her 

find you

devour you

roil you in unbidden needs

unsatisfied

this is my wish for thee.

No one hears those whispered words.

No one sees my little sneer.

No one sees the twist of my fingers

as I utter the curse.

When first I heard the proposal

this design to wrack ruin

upon your horrid manhood

I stuttered

flustered

until the visions came

Ready to sell my soul

to kill yours

for taking her life

her dreams

destroying them

all because she was greater than you

better than you.

Watch now

all shall shun

all shall run

never shall you be great again.

Malevolence is my name.

Vengeance my game.

My birthright.

My ability to make you pay

for all the pain

bleeding from your finger tips.

©Dec. 1/19

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