The Saying Goes:

The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence.

We envision a better life. Happier. More friends. More money. Bigger house. Why is this what we struggle to attain?

There is of course the What If…..

I made a different choice? Responded differently? Took a different route?

What if? What if? What…..

For myself my right now is so much better than any what if I could conjure. My journey has lead me here to the life I am living. To the people I love. To my dreams. To my ever changing self.

©Aug. 1/22

Within Reach

Each hurt

each pain

each bitter pill I had to swallow

became a piece of armour

until one day I realized

I was covered

head to toe

silver armour

diamond studded to ensure

that no one can get through

no one can shear past this woven protection

and within

my heart

my soul

my being are kept hidden.

I feel the sun upon my face

arms akimbo

soaking in the natural beauty

feeling it upon my soul.

Unfurling

reaching for the warmth

tears begin to pool

slow to seep

fall over slender cheek

eyes closed

head back

deep breath

taking in cleansing air

exhaling a black cloud of emotion.

Rage.

Fear.

Disgust.

Shame.

Ego.

All the things that would hold me back.

I embrace this time of change.

I embrace this time of looking back

accepting what was.

I embrace this time of now

learning anew who I am.

I embrace this time of looking forward

to seeing my dreams and reaching for them.

©July 16/22