Your Fool

I feel the fool
as I sit here
tears seeping from my eyes
at the pain I feel
even though we are so far apart.
A part of my day
a love that I have
I told myself I was the one.
I thought
I do not know what I thought
I should have known
romance does not play out
I am the one
left sitting on the curb
wondering what went wrong.
I saw you accidentally
on a night you told me you were busy
I had gone out with some friends.
They tried to shield me
as they have before
but I saw you
I saw her in your arms
held tight
as you did with me last night.
Am I but a conquest?
Someone who you needed to control
to make your own
until satisfied
you rode on to the next one.
I told you
when you said I love you
I wanted none of that
I am too old
to play these teenage games.
I wish you farewell
for my heart is breaking in two
and if you stay near me
I will always be your fool.

©Sept. 30/19
Picture is one of my own taken Matlock Beach
2017

Autumn’s Gloaming

This is the flip side of yesterday’s poem. Unexpected Love can be read here.

Sweet summer days

filled with delights

slowly deflate

moving into the season of fall.

Trees

beautiful in crowns of gold and red

carpet crinkles beneath my feet

I listen for the sound of your step

hoping

wishing

that you would come back for me.

We had tender kisses

talked of a future

of children

of a life intertwined.

In a single heartbeat

one whispered word

I understand not still

what it was that drove us apart.

Chitter chatter

squirrel scolding

as I walk

meandering

dead leaves dissipate

under the heels of my feet

as I turn along the path

where you sought my love

where you let me fall

never looking back.

Crimson sunset

sheds diamond drops on the water

tears

no longer shed

only do I feel numb.

Nearly had a love

unconceived

rare

I held it out

only to be spurned

left alone

without even a good-bye.

©August 26/19

Picture via Pinterest