Your Fool

I feel the fool
as I sit here
tears seeping from my eyes
at the pain I feel
even though we are so far apart.
A part of my day
a love that I have
I told myself I was the one.
I thought
I do not know what I thought
I should have known
romance does not play out
I am the one
left sitting on the curb
wondering what went wrong.
I saw you accidentally
on a night you told me you were busy
I had gone out with some friends.
They tried to shield me
as they have before
but I saw you
I saw her in your arms
held tight
as you did with me last night.
Am I but a conquest?
Someone who you needed to control
to make your own
until satisfied
you rode on to the next one.
I told you
when you said I love you
I wanted none of that
I am too old
to play these teenage games.
I wish you farewell
for my heart is breaking in two
and if you stay near me
I will always be your fool.

©Sept. 30/19
Picture is one of my own taken Matlock Beach
2017

Autumn’s Gloaming

This is the flip side of yesterday’s poem. Unexpected Love can be read here.
Sweet summer days
filled with delights
slowly deflate
moving into the season of fall.
Trees
beautiful in crowns of gold and red
carpet crinkles beneath my feet
I listen for the sound of your step
hoping
wishing
that you would come back for me.
We had tender kisses
talked of a future
of children
of a life intertwined.
In a single heartbeat
one whispered word
I understand not still
what it was that drove us apart.
Chitter chatter
squirrel scolding
as I walk
meandering
dead leaves dissipate
under the heels of my feet
as I turn along the path
where you sought my love
where you let me fall
never looking back.
Crimson sunset
sheds diamond drops on the water
tears
no longer shed
only do I feel numb.
Nearly had a love
unconceived
rare
I held it out
only to be spurned
left alone
without even a good-bye.
©August 26/19
Picture via Pinterest