I sit
silent and tired
unable to give
unable to feel
anything any more.
I watch the world spin out of control.
Blinders are no help.
Ear plugs
they do not silence the screams
of torture
of hatred
of a lust for power
never before seen.
I am frazzled
at my wit’s end
watching our world implode.
I wonder
as tears slowly seep
when did it become so………
Picture via: https://lifesmart2017.blog/2017/11/17/why-is-the-world-imploding/
Strangled by the threads of expectation
pushed on one’s self
until they are choking
unable to articulate their screams,
because today nobody cares.
Pushed into the rubber room,
walls plush with velvet padding
tormented screams rent the air
as demons play games.
Games of love,
only to be shown that love is not for them.
Games of torture,
voices grinding in their ears
until they can take it no more.
Strangled by the threads of expectation
unable to bear
this less than perfect image.
©Jay-lyn Doerksen
December 31/17
I am not perfect, I love without abandon
I am not perfect, I love without thought
I am not perfect, I cry without knowing why
I am not perfect, never will be and I don’t know why I try.
I can lasso the sun, and pull it in close
I can lasso my dreams, and hope they come true
I can lasso my thoughts, will they make sense
the only thing I cannot lasso is my heart.
I stare into the distance, I hope to make it better
I hope that you will love me as much as I love you
I know though that my thoughts and my feelings
They are but a dream.
We came to be without regard, we came to be because
You said to me that I was welcome to leave
But really what type of person does that make me?
To leave when the going gets tough?
I stayed because it was the right thing to do
I stayed because I could not go
You never said thank you, I understood
you only kept on taking.
I did what I did because I cared
I did what I did because that is what is right
Regrets and fears, love lost in tears
that is what my life is made of.
©Jay-lyn Doerksen
July 26/14
A Home For My Writing
A view from the inside of going through the minefield of the British benefit system if you are disabled and the ups and downs of coping with mental illness
Poetry and short stories
An objective, no rules view into the nature of people's relationships and sexual lives, through in person interviews.
In real world, Happily Ever Afters are bittersweet miasma of memories (purely work of fiction and my psychotic imagination) also trigger warning: death, violence, disturbing imagery, etc
The Romantic Ninja's words and doodles
Unconventional Erotica / Poly-Quad / Dominant & submissive/ Heterosexual / Bisexual / Lesbian
This site is about my journey into male chastity. I hope to be brutally honest and perhaps helpful to others wanting to try the same thing.
There is always light in the darkness. Poetry and writings by Caeli McKamey to fuel the soul.
Life is a sensual dream that poetry brings into reality.
Hush The World
Enjoy as I share with you
Ramblings along my journey, from suicidality, to, I hope, life
♠️Rip It Up & Start Again♥️
- Mindfood.
Try to live and not just exist...
Not a social media “hot mess”, I’m a real one.
Love, Lust, Sex And Coffee
Thoughts and experiences
