Untitled Word of the Day Poem #30

Finally took the rings off
unshackled my heart
unbound my soul
I finally am letting you go.
I have waited…..
waited
waited 
waited
for you to return to me
only to realize
I hid my eyes with blindness
preferring to look
upon times of the past
with more fondness
than I do when I look to the future.
It was hard
the day they came to the house
platitudes mouthed
yet…..
only I was the one crying.
I sit upon the bed we once shared
no longer do the sheets
or your pillows
smell like you.
The tee shirt I wear
shorts I pull on
a tribute to my love for you.
I am sorry my darling
it is so hard to let go
to let you rest in peace.
I kneel before your tombstone
sorrow
tears settling into the earth
as I whisper…..
‘I have delayed this too long
good bye my love.
Memories
I will hold tight 
your ghost
I must lay to rest.
Never forget…..
Always and forever
I will love you.’
©April 24/19
Picture via Pinterest and found by The Eclectic Contrarian for me.

Wanna Know?

Are we playing games?
Please
no
I am sorry
I cannot let you go.
I try.
I shunt you from memories
from dreams
but still
you appear.
You break through
smell of oil
of grease
of tobacco
calms me
envelopes me
why 
why can you not see
what I have to give.
Than I realize.
Not me.
You.
You walked into a trap 
of your own
thinking I would wait
ummmm
hello?
Yeah….
no!
I can no longer hide
tears of burnt amber
tears
you feel are your due
guess what darling
suddenly
I have realized…..
I have made my resolutions……
would you not like to know?
 
January 1/19
Photo by John Mark Arnold on Unsplash