Word of the Day Challenge #53-Untitled Poem

Languid loneliness
stretching rays of sadness
crossing bleak landscape
shrouded with shadows
stumbling
numbed existence
will this ever end?
or am I to wander
aimlessly
fruitlessly
crossroad decisions
made in a thrice?
Beguiling mists of forgetfulness
maze of deceit
wandering befuddled
a wasteland
pockmarked visage
dangerous
take not my eyes from the truth.
Mirage built from sand
time malleable in the wilds
winds wicking away thoughts
before a chance is had to anchor.
Listless
deadened eyes scan the horizon
incapacitated
cut off from the emotions of my mind.
I become lost
tangled in the ribbons of weave
hung
center stage
for all to focus on.
Sadness
a midnight cloak
face inward
face outward
play time is here
come on
smile my dear.
©August 29/19
Picture via Pinterest

Awakening

Surreal
traipsing through alleyways
on the search
unsure what I hunt for
only knowing
it must be here.
Stalking
I wander lost
unable to get ahead
yet never falling behind.
Elusive
slipping like a shadow before
there goes my love
on the run again.
So abused this heart of mine
choosing to shelter in the pain
choosing damage over health
choosing…..
to be chained
to be locked 
to be shackled.
Hiding behind a door 
welded shut 
with bars across.
No one gets in.
No one gets out.
Gingerly I knock upon the door
worried at what I might find
a wisp of Hotel California
playing in my mind.
Bars fell
door unmagiced
opens
slowly I enter.
In the corner
no longer sobbing
is that small part of me
who still loves with abandon
who believes in beauty
who believes in the possibility of everything.
Vast smile on her face
she squeals
delighted to see me
ready to go.
I gather my love.
I gather my heart.
I leave behind sorrow.
I leave behind pain.
I leave behind the worst.
My love looks in
black night
shadows dancing
squeals and disappears.
I feel my heart bloom.
Sorry to say
my hospitality for my new tenets
was very poor
so they did decay
a small pile of ashes
with no power at all.
©May 21/19
Picture found via Pinterest by The Eclectic Contrarian.