Coiled Sanity

My chains
No less binding
Being made of gold
Rather then silver
Each link forged
With a diamond clasp
Evil tainted
An object
A possession
For you.
Like a fool
I thought.....
You said I was special
You said there was no other
You said
So many things
Untruths
Half lies
I never knew
Which man I would see
Raging
Easy going
Full of laughter
Snarling with disbelief
At my so called stupidity.
What did I do?
To make you a monster?
Where am I lacking?
For you to have fallen out of love?
My heart breaks.
My silence grows.
Into it.....
Your melodious voice
Malevolent
Digging beneath my skin
My sanity
Fills the empty hours
Berating
Taunting
Vile words
Shredding
Flaying
Until I am no more
A bloody mess knelt before.....
Vacant eyes
Watching
Your mouth
Bleeding
So busy were you
Slashing at me
Swords of words
You failed to see supper's new ingredient.
They will say it was justified.
They will say it could have had no other outcome
Unless it was I
Who had ended up dead.

Dec. 29/22

Always There

Silver dreams

And chains of gold

Wrapped ’round

Waist

Wrist

Throat.

Lead me

Parade me

On bended knee

I shall serve you

Giving my all

Receiving your all

Together

We are united.

No one knows

No one understands

The dignity

The respect

The love

The push to do better

Be better

All to benefit my growth.

Without you

My life would be so bleak

I would be lost

For you bring to me

A silence in the storm

A safe haven

A singular place

For me to be me.

I love you with my entire soul.

I serve you with my entire being.

I try not to look ahead

I work hard not to digress

For a day will come

When no more will we be

And my heart breaks

For I  do not know how to be…..

Without you.

©Dec. 8/22

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