Tired

Tears

streaking

trailing

salted lips

my heart is breaking.

I love you dear.

I want the innocence

of our love

of summer winds

autumn breeze

I want not to feel broken.

Fuck this hurts me.

I want starlit dances

with a partner

who treasures me

shows me my worth.

Who takes the time

to make me laugh

who will hold me when the monsters call

cradling me close in safety.

I want once more

to feel marvelous

excited

wanted

not broken.

Tired

oh so tired

of hiding behind fake smiles

tear soaked pillows

alcohol fueled lust

men I know not

my nightly companions instead of you.

Peel back the fantasy

rotted beneath

black

festering

vile decay…..

no longer is this love

no longer is this my dream

fading away

smoking tatters in the wind.

 

©April 26/19

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