Untitled #1 Relationship Poem

These ideals
dreams that I have held
your voice
your hands
your desire
I know
I am…..
not what you want.
I have no need to be supported.
I have no need to ask for money.
You do not understand
how to relate to someone without wants
someone
who can take care of herself
can fend for herself.
Not that there are no wants.
Fiscal they not be.
Wants of…..
 love
desire
make me feel safe
as you have before.
So easy
better for you
to be the provider
the one in control.
When it becomes equal
your fears
my tears
you turn to leave.
Me…..
I wait
hoping your answer
will not make my heart bleed.
December 22/18