Healing Self

Carving a path

eking out a space

a place

that I can call my own

where I can sing my songs

where I can dance with abandon

where I can finally be me.

Cowering within

so long

never a moment’s peace

little girl wailing

screaming

where no one can hear

except for me.

Hungry

wanting to consume the pain

agony

torturous

writhing on the floor

desperate to escape the chains binding.

Voices rise up

pointing their fingers

reading me their wants

their desires

which

should they be at cross purpose to my own

shall be placed first.

Desperate to escape

using any measure found

alcohol

drugs

knife held to my veins

needing to let the venom out.

You found me

struggling

alone

on that street corner

the one between Hell and Hope.

I found safety.

You nurtured me.

You fed me.

You healed the physical

yet are unable to breach the walls

of my mental psyche.

Walls built

tough to tear down

never do I let others in.

You…..

you have found a way in

you have found a way to peace

you have given me my wants

my needs.

You have taught me how to heal myself

never shall I forget this.

 

©June 22/19

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