Healing Self

Carving a path
eking out a space
a place
that I can call my own
where I can sing my songs
where I can dance with abandon
where I can finally be me.
Cowering within
so long
never a moment’s peace
little girl wailing
screaming
where no one can hear
except for me.
Hungry
wanting to consume the pain
agony
torturous
writhing on the floor
desperate to escape the chains binding.
Voices rise up
pointing their fingers
reading me their wants
their desires
which
should they be at cross purpose to my own
shall be placed first.
Desperate to escape
using any measure found
alcohol
drugs
knife held to my veins
needing to let the venom out.
You found me
struggling
alone
on that street corner
the one between Hell and Hope.
I found safety.
You nurtured me.
You fed me.
You healed the physical
yet are unable to breach the walls
of my mental psyche.
Walls built
tough to tear down
never do I let others in.
You…..
you have found a way in
you have found a way to peace
you have given me my wants
my needs.
You have taught me how to heal myself
never shall I forget this.
 
©June 22/19
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