***Picture is one of my own***
You move in and out of my orbit
pulling me close
shutting me out
until I can see no longer.
When you are here
life is so much sweeter.
Water tastes of wine
and our mouths meet with strawberry kisses.
When you are gone
black clouds loom overhead.
Thunder shakes my heart
and the cold is piercing.
I have a want
I have a need
a hunger that only you can sate.
***Picture courtesy of Pintrest***
The first time i saw her she took my breath
spotted through the lens of a security camera
i became lost in her beauty and only wanted to know
if she might desire me.
The first time I knew that something was amiss
the day a rose appeared on my desk
With a note detailing how nice I looked,
and I was charmed.
i began to find time to turn my lens her way
watching and learning all that i could of her,
wanting only to find a way in, to say hello
without scaring her away.
I began to fear as the flowers and notes became too much
looking over my shoulder wondering just who you are?
Every time the door dings alerting me to an entrance
my heart begins to race and I wonder if it is you?
i discovered where she lived and prowled the ‘hood
finding my way into her home.
i riffled through her drawers, coming away with souvenirs
leaving behind another welcome surprise.
The rose and petals strewn on my bed made my stomach churn
and so begins, another game, another race to discover
Who feels that they can terrorize me? Who thinks that they can gain?
admission to my heart and soul with such careless stuff?
i know we are to be together oh why can she not see?
i know that our souls will bond and bind
forever making us one of a kind.
I found the man I needed on a street unnamed
explained my needs and wants
he showed me guns and swords galore
while I made my peace.
i filmed you in so many ways, asleep, awake, undressed
tonight i shall climb in your window
taking your heart
and making you mine.
The people who swore that they could save me
are never near when needed.
Instead they mouth quiet promises of which I have seen the results
so we must do this my way.
i found the house in darkness, shadows layered upon shadows
for i chose a night with no moon.
together we shall make the sky alight
burning with our flames.
I sit in the blackness waiting.
I hear the window creak
left open to encourage the beast
and now the end is near.
in flickering candle light i found her
awake and waiting for me.
i knew but a brief minute of satisfaction
until she smiled at me.
A death mask revealed within my burning smile
as I waited for him to come.
Victim no more, I am the avenger
stealing back my life.
Beneath a stark sky….diamond prick prints of star light
Do I know you….do I care…. am I suppose to hide from you?
I see stark bone limbs framed by black lit sky
Stars acting as velvet backdrops
Drool upon my lower lip, bitten in desire.
Arching, aching, I submit my soul….I do not hate,
I do not detach, I can only hope that I am yours.
If your chose to debase, to turn up your
rosy regard; let me know so my kilt I may keep,
my humanity my own.
©Jay-lyn Doerksen February 2017