Stolen Self Care

Warm moments
unguarded
music dancing
coffee steams
slow change
sun rise
turning the sky a rosy pink
golden hues
temptation to misbehave
curls lip
in slight smile.
To play hooky
to all in sick
to take this day
for me.
Drive to the mountains
walk in crisp air
acknowledge vastness
greatness
how small I am
in the grand scheme of things.
Drive to the ocean
walk the deserted beach
sand between the toes
dance in dance out
mini waves lapping toes
eating away at my trail
no one shall follow
no one shall know.
Drive.
Window open.
Scents of summer
corn
heat
sweat
burning cigarette
turning face towards the sun
absorbing heat
wellness
a flower re-blooming
in spring weather
after a long cold winter.
Drive.
Think.
Talk.
Love.
Laugh.
Alone.
Taking care of me
for one day
before returning to it all…..
©Aug. 20/20
Picture is my own

Perfectly Imperfect

Wretched
hollowed eyes
staring into the mirror
aghast
this wraith
is it truly me?
Wrapped
pained chains
swathed in miasma
unable to swim free.
Blackened shadows
in the depths
reaching out
tentacles
lashed around
pull me downward.
Drowning
gasps
unable to see
preservation is key.
I cannot 
I am afraid
a child unacknowledged.
Fast forward…..
Looking back
to that woman
broken
lost
defeated
I was…..
To this woman
cracked
crazy
filled with love
acceptance of self
so lacking before
I now have in spades.
I have swum many an ocean…..
pain
tears
addiction
to arrive upon these shores
not in perfection
but in perfect imperfection
love me as I am.
©Dec. 10/19
Picture is my own
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