Final Good-bye

Every love song suddenly resonates

filling me with joy.

Every song of loss and despair 

fills me with melancholy.

I sit beneath the fat summer moon

watching the waves ebb and flow.

The stars above a glittering heaven,

and I no longer have any doubt.

My heart is no longer mine to control,

it has leapt from my chest to your hands.

Can you feel the hesitant beating?

Can you feel how fragile it is?

Juggle not with the heart that you hold

for it is the only one I have.

Too many times I have given out my trust

only to have it turn to ashes at my feet.

And when the time comes that you leave.

And you will leave.

They always do.

Promise me this:

Be kind to that heart that you hold.

Thrust deep and hard,

looking into my eyes,

when we say our final good-bye.

©Jay-lyn Doerksen

Oct. 22/17

 

How can it be

How can it be

that only now I can see

what was always there

in front of me?

How can it be

that I was so blinded 

by desire and need

that you were able to fall through the cracks?

You slipped into my life,

my heart,

my dreams,

you became everything.

But in one wicked moment

with a sharp word of good bye

I lost it all 

because I lost sight of me.

How can it be

that I was such a fool

and I let you go

when really,

I should have sheltered in your arms. 

©Jay-lyn Doerksen

 September 27/17