We all strive to attain something that cannot be attained.
What society thinks we should do.
How we do it.
When we do it.
Have to have this this and this to be happy.
But what you want to attain is different from what I want to attain.
Therefore the meaning of life is going to be different for each individual person.
For myself I would like to see more joy.
More care for others.
There is war.
There is strife.
I am not naive.
However I cannot control or affect things on a massive scale so I do what I can to spread joy and laughter.
Love and care.
That is my meaning in life.
What is yours?
You were teetering on the edge.
You went over and discovered that it is not as scary as you thought.
You can fall apart and break down but you are not broken.
And thus like the Phoenix you shall arise anew from the ashes ready to create your own meaning of life.