Word of the Day Challenge #96-Untitled Poem

Fingers pressed
rain dusted pane
pain
glowing lights
fade
amber to gold
to silence.
Lost
lips tremble
I hate this
hate feeling I am meaningless
a game
played by you
until bored
I become garbage on the side.
Do you laugh?
Do you point?
Do you crow?
Look at that stupid bitch
falling for me
falling for you
cow
she is willing to do anything
play her along
get what you need
show those videos
disrespect 
she will never know.
Each unanswered message
each unanswered call
tears
fall like rain
realizing
was your game.
©April 1/20
Picture my own

Fifteen Minutes

15 minute increments.
That is how I live
8 hours a day
five days a week
15 minute increments.
I watch the clock carefully
I must excuse myself
I need to go
I need to wash my hands
to keep you
and myself safe.
15 minute increments
this is not a game
this is my new reality
as I serve the public
who need to eat
who need their care
who need reassurance
who need a friendly ear.
15 minute increments.
I wonder
up to 14 days
to incubate
please wait I must sanitize
I am sorry I have to make you stand
this is for your safety and mine.
15 minute increments.
This is my new reality.
This is my new truth.
This is a new life for everyone.
We are all in this together.
There is no need
to push
punch
scream
like animals in a zoo
suddenly released
set upon one another.
Bloody massacre.
15 minute increments.
I hope you have a great day.
I need a moment please.
Stand over the sink
how many 15 minutes have passed?
Single tear drops.
Chin quivers.
Deep breath.
Stand up straight.
Smile on my face.
In my ear
your voice
reassuring
‘baby you got this
it is only 15 minutes.’
©March 31/20
Picture is my own

Elite Scrimmage

Crimson moon
scuttled dark
tempers flare
short
walk away quickly
before
death does come
he is tired
of waiting in the corner.
Leaning upon his scythe
waiting
dreaming for the time
when you will fuck up
think without care
speak without reason
as I listen
wondering
head cocked to the side
how much further do you dare?
Push me
tempt me
keys pressed violently
deep breath
control the red dimmed vision
you ninny
dancing around
ape like
only
they are smarter.
Tarnished copper crown
falls
rolling through dusted floors
crocodile tears
ranting
how this is so undeserved
how could we be so mean
how could we be……
medieval like
as his head does roll
right to my boot toe
I just smile
death always did like
a good game of soccer.
©March 30/20
Picture via Pinterst

Banal Veracity

Hard to say
hard to see
time has come
to worry
to fret
to wonder
what the hell is going on?
I am lost.
I know that.
I admit that.
My needs are simple.
My needs are easy.
Hold me in your arms
make me feel safe
whispered words
wrapped in your embrace.
These are days…..
days never imagined
black death…..
plague…..
might be comparable
front line
never thought it
hand out
supplication
our new reality.
I do what I have to do.
I keep you safe.
I keep myself safe.
I can only do what is…..
expectations must be modified
within reason
within trust
within my ability to give.
My words go out
my words…..
try to offer sympathy
I cannot though
we are too far gone
there is no returning from this.
Bow
plead
deaf ears have turned
no one is hearing
no one is caring
we shall die
while they eat pie
yet
our fault it will be
so they shall see
I am sorry
reality is blurred
there is no saving you
there is no saving me
there is no saving…..
bland truth
blooded dreams
we can go no further.
©March 27/20
Picture is my own.

Shadowed Pain

Shadows creep
inching along
covering all in darkness
muffled sounds
groans
moans
shuddering in pain.
Not my pain
your pain
I see you on your knees
begging me
pleading with me
skeletal grimace
facade
molted smile
dank smoke rolls in.
Time has come
raw
fading in
fading out
dreams entailed
nightmares
ripped into your skin
tattooed
mouth creased in dismay.
I hear
you shriek
today is no less than tomorrow
shadowed woods
fogged graces
eerie it is
as I become shrouded darkness.
©March 26/20
Picture is my own

Whispered Cravings

I felt…..
your words
caressing
demanding
calling forth
emotions
feelings
that I have never felt
ever
before.
I felt…..
your lips
tasting
sucking
everywhere
upon my thighs
my breasts
my tasty bits
feasted upon.
I felt…..
your tongue
lapping
surrounding
tracing a pattern
around my nipple
erect
screaming for release.
My body arches
bow tight
arrow release
screaming
begging…..
Daddy please
let me go….
moaning breaths
let me go….. 
gasping for air
Daddy please
can I cum for you?
I felt
that connection
that need
fed in you
fed in me
our connection
sparks in the night.
©March 25/20
Picture via Pinterest

Word of the Day Challenge #95-Untitled Poem

He was a great man
he was a beast
He helped all he came to him
he stole from those 
needing aid
He beget an empire
children of whores
He reigned with selflessness
he ruled with blood
iron maiden
killing his dissidents
his enemies.
He slew the innocent
gave voice to evil
clapped the devil on the back
black lit deals
money in the casket
leaving all others to cry
war mongering
battle lines drawn
time to batten down.
Top to bottom
great man
praises sung
full of lies
we knew the truth
we knew the reality
history will not be replayed
it was his time to die
of that I was sure.
©March 24/20
Picture is my own