Wicked Avenger

Pretty Princess
Sweet Baby
you cooed
making me sick
I turned my head
unable to watch
detach
go away
deep inside
where shall I hide?
Forced to look into your eyes
head held in a vise grip
your evil leer
forever 
etched by acid
deep in my mind.
One after another
they came
while I lay
near death
bled dry 
fierce warrior
rising in my breast
she will not let me die.
Time heals
they assured me
pain will fade
the inside scars though
they are always there.
I beg to differ.
I watched you die.
One after the other.
You begged me to stop.
You begged with all your might.
Just like you
I was deaf.
Unlike you.....
I had the will for revenge.

©Feb. 4/23

No Longer The One

Did you think that I would never know?

Never recall?

Or shy from the pain those memories bring

shoveling down

covering with addiction;

but I knew

in the back of my mind

where the locked chest

of things I do not want to deal with

of things I do not want to acknowledge

resides.

Destroyed my childhood.

Destroyed my teenage years.

Destroyed me as a young adult.

It took me a long time

to right the wrong I did to myself

in the name of the father

who harmed me so.

Your voice

no longer the one on repeat

your face

no longer able to haunt my dreams

your death

took from me the ability to make you pay

so I use my imagination instead.

©Sept. 21/22