Wicked Avenger

Pretty Princess
Sweet Baby
you cooed
making me sick
I turned my head
unable to watch
go away
deep inside
where shall I hide?
Forced to look into your eyes
head held in a vise grip
your evil leer
etched by acid
deep in my mind.
One after another
they came
while I lay
near death
bled dry 
fierce warrior
rising in my breast
she will not let me die.
Time heals
they assured me
pain will fade
the inside scars though
they are always there.
I beg to differ.
I watched you die.
One after the other.
You begged me to stop.
You begged with all your might.
Just like you
I was deaf.
Unlike you.....
I had the will for revenge.

©Feb. 4/23

No Longer The One

Did you think that I would never know?
Never recall?
Or shy from the pain those memories bring
shoveling down
covering with addiction;
but I knew
in the back of my mind
where the locked chest
of things I do not want to deal with
of things I do not want to acknowledge
Destroyed my childhood.
Destroyed my teenage years.
Destroyed me as a young adult.
It took me a long time
to right the wrong I did to myself
in the name of the father
who harmed me so.
Your voice
no longer the one on repeat
your face
no longer able to haunt my dreams
your death
took from me the ability to make you pay
so I use my imagination instead.
©Sept. 21/22
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